its cause im willing to wait_____________

shifted

2007-01-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

i have shifted to Here

Cheers.

damn shagged

2006-09-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

closing this blog down?

yea fairly soon if i dUn update anymore.. haha.

anw. been reli busy with studies. so much to do... reports nv stop coming in..
my turn for powerpoint presentation comin up for pharm. n its gonna be crazy...
everyone is gonna start bombardin qns.. n more qns.. as part of participation marks. shucks!!! stressed lor... monday 3reports due. tues presentation n netball match. but since its my las sem before i can walk out with a degree... what can i do but persevere!!!

talkin abt netball social league. it is every tues nite in uni.. netball trainings everywk as well to practise our steppings and skills n most imptly inculcate team spirit.. we are mostly new players. barely experienced at all.. n its been qt a toil of demoralising ride through today's 4th match..

but the most important lesson afterall is to learn from our mistakes and make the best out of every game.

and for me. it's this- stamina.

for those who know me.. i detest running. i hate this sport to the core.. i HATE it so much i'd pray silently that it would rain everyday duringour P.E days in JC n sec sch even if it is to flood the school and we have to go home drenched in the rain.

but you know what. im pickin this habit up lik addicts are takin drugs. im addicted to it n have been gettin myself more n more disciplined n this aspect. the weather here is so cooling- jus perfect. except for one of the days when the wind was so strong sand kept gettin into my eyes..
*sulks*

i had to walk my way home reluctantly that day incase sand gets into my mouth if i gasped for more air.

it's v tiring everytime i come back from sch at 5 daily. then do some stretchin before i leave for a half n hr run. but its all good. im actually enjoyin it now =))

for the team. for myself. yes OREOS!

n he bought me sth. a recent gift which was a huge heart-shaped helium filled smiley balloon with two arms by its side! so huge you can hug it lik its real. haha.. but it's deflating n gettin out of shape alr.. looks lik the heartless in "Kingdom Hearts".. yea speakin about PSII games.. im gettin incorrigible. i have spent about 40+ hrs on this PSII game. n i havent seem to come any close to completing this game yet. its reli fun! haha..

anyhw.. im touched by dear's gesture.. he has been to work EVERY wkend at a pizzateria even when his midsem's comin up.. gee he has saved enuf for a trip.. with that we will be gg on a holiday nxt yr jan.. isn't he a sweetie.. he's oways been.. n i so wanna do sth for him too!! but its a secret. for now =)

and thank you for coming down to support EVERY single netball match... thanks to all other curriehallers too...

peace.

41st national day

2006-08-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

Happy national day! i attended the singapore's society event.. in anticipation for the live telecast of the parade with hundreds others singaporeans. only to realise the president in the parade wasn't Mr nat. instead it was a chinese minister who was representin Mr nat in the national day preview!!

where's the live telecast??? this was the same disappointment i had last year too... heard this year's fireworks was cooooool eh....

at least i din miss out on the solely singaporean event (altho a handful other nationalities turned up too) and was pampered with a bowl of tOu suan.. how i miss sg's delicacies and friends....

happy national day singapore.

happy birthday!!!

2006-07-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

Firstly.. wanna wish minhua n dear a happy birthday! =)))

Secondly.. school is gonna commence yet again this monday! *sulks*

And thirdly, shall give a more detailed description of dear's bday, which was quite a blast =)))
I had a fair share of his present from his perth buddies. hahahaha. *evil smile*

It was our virgin experience at the bowling alley in perth. hahaha.
We played 3 rounds in total. and only at the 3rd round i finally warmed up n crushed dear! hahaha. well actually i only partly beat him.. 'cos he ridiculously thrusted the ball towards the drains by the sides.
What a waste of money!!! roarrrrrrrrr!!!

Then, i brought dear to two places he had never been to: Little caesars and swan valley. Basically we had pizzas at Little caesars and they taste AWESOME!
Especially the Oyster kilpatrick and the Chicken fettucine that has spaghetti on the pizza.. that was dear's fav!
Two of us ate up to 3 small pizzas and we were still not full. just quite jerlat with the overloaded chocolate desert pizza that was soooo chocolatey la... they even put real dark, milk and white chocolate pallets on the top of the pizza..
And my, arent pizzas in perth tooo cheap??? 3 for $30 selling at the best pizza cafeteria! haha. simply coolness!
In reverse, the Duck at the Mallard duck restaurant in swan valley costs $29. so freaking expensive!
The portion size was pathetic.. but the duck is super savory! if not, i won't have recommended rite? haha.
Like dear said, its fine dining. how classy does that sound. hehe.
Bought lots of chocos n non-alcoholic wine too! splendid.

As mentioned earlier, dear's buddy gave him a present. and it became solely mine the moment dear removed the wrappings. hahahahaha.
It was a beautiful purple lava lamp! which i told dear long time ago when we passed by a shop in the city that i wished i had one.
And apparently, his blur fren mistakenly thought it was dear who liked lava lamps.
It's mine now! hahaha.

And i love it! haha. evil me for kopping people's present..! *evil laugh*
Shall buy dear a good lunch or dinner durin one friday late nights! =)))
The guys also celebrated dear's belated bday, this time w/o alcohol. *thank god*
It was cooooool. i got to play mahjong again and i am so so so glad that dear had so much fun on his 24th bday. haha =)

Wanna know what i got for dear...
A seiko watch i got from ebay. 'cos dear likes it alot alot and its not that expensive. almost 50% cheaper than what the mkt is selling! of 'cos must grab it before anyone does!! hahaha.
I cant let my dad know though, i think i will be killed for that... *sheesh...
Anw.. ebay is cooool and im kinda stuck on it. sometimes we can get cheap shit if we are lucky..
I have even ordered a men's ring for him. 'cos his current one is wearing off.

(picture directly ripped from the ebay seller)

I love you darling. so much so it's impossible to let you go now.
Once again, happy birthday to YOU! *huGS* =))

::tired, but im a happy girl::

the greatest creation

2006-07-12T19:25:00.000+08:00

whenever im down.. i'd drive to the beach. for that's where i can find peace and tranquility. i'd sit by the sand and enjoy the splendid view of the great ocean and immerse myself in the cool breeze that comes and goes. every trouble inside me seems to have been cleansed away. every breath i take from then on seems to relive that already despaired heart in me. as such, it has made me realise the power of mother nature, being one of the greatest creation of god, if only we slow down our hectic lives and start to appreciate what's goin on around us..

::a cloudy day::

::when it looks like a storm is coming::

::but there is always rainbow after the storm::

i can relive. and i thank god for everything.

worldcup fever

2006-07-08T17:10:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin even when my exams were over.. even if i had the free time, i'd be playin kingdom hearts (its very fun! im barely halfway thru part 1 n now part 2 is sellin the mkt) or be slackin with dear over bubbletea while watchin rented dvds. tim burton's corpse bride & barely legal are ok. munich sucks in dear's opinion, much less mine. son of the mask is an ultimately lamE show which i wld at most pay my electricity bills and watch it thru tv channels at home. we still got SAW at home. probly after watchin SAW, we wld rent SAW 2 and 2 other older shows. cos the rental of 1 new n 2 old shows cost merely $9. considering 1 ticket to the movie costs me $11.50, $9 for 3 shows for both me and dear is definitely worth the money.

the past days haven been that great. 'cos my closest mate, chany has graduated and returned to hometwn. awww so gonna miss her presence man... she's left many of her possessions with me tho.. mostly are memento. such as her shower radio wich she used to carry with her whenevr she showers in the hostel alone late in the night, textbooks for dear since they tk the same course, printing papers, LOADS (~30 packets) of ramen noodles which is only available in everywhere except in aust etc.. she once came to my place with large bottles of dove body soap n green tea shampoo n politely insisted to give them to us or they wld have ended up in the rubbish bin anyway. to my expectation, my dear uses them now. haha. her bf wil also be stayin in our hse when he comes to sit for a supplementary paper. yeah probably he will remind me of her too..

apart from these. i have met up with my coursemates for dimsum, one from china n the other from hongkong. both of them have stayed in perth during this winter brk as well. it was tennis on one of the wkdays at curriehall too.. finali had the urge for sm ballgames. haha. it was good. definitely far better than joggin =)

i have also caught CARS, CLICK n the pirates of carribbean 2.. hmm ok la... hmm din really enjoy the shows tho... CLICK probably wasnt bad, 'cos it did make me tear a little. can't rember part 1 of the pirate show, so cldn't understd several parts of the movie. yeah.. the movie is so profound.. smtimes they dun even sound lik they are speakin in proper english language to me. wat can i do.. australia movie screens do nt have chinese subtitles on them! urgh... haha..

of cos i have also been catchin up with the worldcup fever.. been bettin and losin lik mad... haha.. not reli.. but for the past 2 matches i betted, i lost both.. one on japan vs aust. i betted for japan! and they freakin lose their stamina in the last 10mins and let in 3 goals for aust. pEngz.... another match was portugal vs france. betted for both teams to draw at 90min n france to go into extra time n win.. but who noes the freakin henry had to dive and earn a penalty kick for france in the 33rd min. once again.. this shows how lousy im at gambling. sadly the worldcup is gonna be over soon... two more matches means i have two more chances to recoup my loss... but gladly, even if i lose (*TOUCHwood) the next two matches.. i wont have gambled away my semester fees.. but rather.. will treat it as CHARITY.. y not when its a sum i can afford to donate..

it's jz once in four years we can indulge in such an adrenal rush. and hopefully germany wins!

Peace..

Tiffany

choco cupcake

2006-05-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

*dedicated to the girl who brightened my day!

thanks for the cupcakes. but by leavin them outside my door anonymously.. its so dangerous... geez.. it wld be an absolute waste if the magpies/crows/hungry neighbours stole it... =p haha

really, i have no idea what occasion it was... but i dun reli care anyway.. 'cos i like it! i especially adOre the choco fudge that's melted in the centre! haha. anyhow, speakin of occasions.. you dUn have to have occasions to give people nice food hey?! (get my hint?!) wahaha.. the cupcake tastes v sweet.. and that only briefly sums up how wonderful you are.. =) thank you girl!

thankyou syerna =)

hmm hmm.... speakin of which, i shall also attempt to make something for my friends sometime.. any takers?? =p

couple blog

2006-05-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

you appeared in my life all over again.
you haven't changed, have you.
being lame, unmannerly and all.
but this time, the smile on ur face's been erased.
i wondered how you have been..
my friend.

and i thought i saw another familiar face.
i thought i have seen you before.
but no.. i don't know you.
we talked and laughed like good old friends.

so real.
but it's all just a dream. i must be thinking too much.

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[man.. i hate to be accused. especially when i din mean to do it! wats more.. it was a misunderstdin.. and i thought by you sayin its ok.. you dun blame me.. tings will be back to before?

perhaps its my bad inference skill.
i have no clue why.
i will only go this far.
the rest is not within my discretion.
let's just say.. it takes both hands to clap.]

*my hand will always be here.

apologies for my late update. and i still cannot upload the pics as mention in my prev entry.. the zip file was so large (9000kb) that each time my fren sent to me via msn.. my internet connection must sign me out and abort the transfer.... not once. but at least 5 freaking times. my internet provider (optus) had done a marvellous job. it had gotten on both of our nerves, really. well it seems like the only option left is for me to pop by her place smtime to get the files into my harddisk. -_-zz

its the time of the semester i need motivation and momentum for my comin exams! geez... lucky me though.. my papers are 1wk apart from each other.. hehee =p but because im takin two 12pts subj.. apart from the ultra tedious lab hours assigned to us each wk.. each paper will be like doubly hard the paper of a normal 6-credits subj... so yeah... i still very much felt challenged.

nothin recently gives me a reason to smile and feel happy about. i noe im gonna sound mushy and all.. so stop readin if you tink you arent gonna lik what you are gonna see eh.

you know something... well actually i dun have to spread these words.. 'cos like what the bible says... it does not boost. for whatever the bible is tryin to imply.. i am here sayin this for the eyes of one special person. i have said this to you personally... you have heard it. and you know how i feel abt you. smtimes im a pain in ur ass(PUN intended!). for many reasons that you noe. hehe. how you always tell me, "you are blah blah blah... but i still love you"... i love you too.

every single mornin when i have school... you would crawl out from bed... and tumble to the kitchen (cos you just wokeup so abit blurrrr.. haha) and make me my favorite breakfast- egg with mushroom and lettuce or cheese with beef pie. and then go back to bed after i left for school.. always so willing to be at "service" for me! as you put it... you feel happy for havin the opportunity to make breakie for me... =) so sweet... and i thank you for that... while i bein the lucky girl.. only have the chance to make brekkie for you every tues. when you have morn classes. tsktsk.

you are the most hilarious guy i have ever met. crackin up lamestttt jokes to mk me laugh... smtimes i admit ur jokes seemed more irritatin than funny and that pissed me off... oops.. im sorry.. for bein angry at you... you were tryin to make me happy when im down.. and from the fact that you ARE bein urself... you are the aaron i noe who likes to crack jokes.. and be merry... e more i shouldn't be angry for who you're... and start to accept you. like how you accept me since the start.. =)

hope you like the backpack i got for you as our 17th month present... n with the confidence i have in this relationship.. i know we will be together for a longgg longgg time. even longer than the time to take to build the Great wall of China. haha.. pengz. so im thinkin of creating a couple blog for both of us.. and deciding wat template to use. probably not creating soon 'cos exams comin up la... i love you baby.. always.

22 years old

2006-04-23T01:39:00.000+08:00

well wat can i say... one week easter holidays is almost over (an illusion for all of us to believe we can enjoy a road trip down south.. to be more specific, it's an illusion for science and engineering students. so unfair. sigh).

i wish i can say it's been a fun easter.

oh i went albany for 3days 2nites with my friends... had lots of fun taking pics, the beautiful sceneries! such as the 7 famous windmills at blah blah location... the sea.. the hills and the wonderful sandboarding experience!

screw the holidays. it's not least better than school days. during school term. they wont scare u by telling you there's a midsem exam next week and make you panic during the weekends..

there's always a bloody short one week studybreak before these kinda exams pour in. (with exception to my dear's exams... which was before the one week break. and he is enjoying this holiday. so happening! for him only la)

i hate this one week break. shuckSssss... i had a report due yesterday. a midsem exam comin this monday... and it sucks! why muz it be on the 24th? why not 25th? 26th or 27th....

for the young and innocent. 24th is my birthday. (man.. im getting old! double sighh...)

hehe... my present from dear (see below image)

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chio boh?!

like i mentioned in my previous entry.... he bought this for me 'cos he knows i like =p initially he wanted to buy me levis stuff.. like the one whole set- top, jeans, belt?, earrings of other brands of cos... but because i kinda guesed that.. he had to reluctantly change to plan B and pyscho me to stop guessing so that he dun have to keep changing plans... haha..

chio chio.. i like it lots! and it's arriving tml (sunday, when my friend, chany, in singapore returns to perth. yeah.. clever dear asked my friend a favor. to buy the hp from sg.. its much cheaper there. hee).

monday(17th april), my aust friends had something up their sleeves too. they surprised me at my house! with steamboat ingredients and a TLC-made cake! so touched! so sweet right =p haha.. i tel u i was sO shocked! and totally speechless at the door =))))

so we had steamboat at my house.

tsktsk.. and i won monopoly when i haven been playing that for like 500 years?

so touched the wonderful girls' gestures... the chocolate cake tastes fantastic! and the icing looks super chio lorr... the pics are not with me.. i will upload them in my next entry! hee =)

as for the rest of the holidays... i don't have to elaborate wat happened eh?

reports.. exams and presentations... boo!

happy birthday in advance to me. haha..

cheers.. peace.

yes. i am a lucky girl.

thankyouall =)))

awesome sunday

2006-04-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

it was a slightly more interesting day today... i experienced something extremely special...! *grin* perhaps i should say.. not many people of my age has experienced THIS!

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i went for lesson on a sunday for the first time! hahaha!

and i thought it would suck.. but it din!

yeah... i had a good time workin in the culture suite with ryan, who is from the other group.. we were the assigned two to attend the lab for our physio group.. it was all good.. so happy that the cell counts were normal and my group's cells turned out to be healthy and my results were good.. haha.. AWESOME!

how silly of me to think that this would ruin my day... hehe.. =)

dear's bday plan for me was exposed due to my "cleverness".... haha..

bt let me say this... he's sOOO sweet! he's asked a favour from my fren to buy something from sg back... it's something i weali weali likeee...! and he's givin up on buyin his PSP to buy me this beauuutiful gadget... and it's not cheap at all! awwwww... thank you so much baby for splurging on me! i appreciate all these very much...

and most of all.. i will love you always!

love, tiff =)

so much in mind....

2006-04-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

i have so much things in mind....

reports.. presentations.. midsem exams..

friendship... friend falling out with another. and another on the shaky side..

housechores... daily discipline to cook/clean up.

younger bro who's fuckin lazy and i think he still doesn't know what PSLE is.

car... an integra which is dear's dream car.. but sadly there are problems here and there...

the bloody early lectures are drivin me insane....

long labs are hellish. but how fortunate of us!! it's PROSH(which stands for dUno wtf) this comin wednesday! it basically involves uni students to volunteer on community service the whole of mornin and afternnoon. which probably implies that i can slp thru lunch on wednesday! hahaha! and all biochem labs are cancelled this wk. yEshh! hahahaha!

but still... i guess this will be the time i buck up on my laggy study routine?

back to studies... i have yet to start on revision. plus all the exams and presentations are comin real soon..!!! think i shouldn't whine but kick ass and start doin sth soon before it's too late.

think i should thank dear officially for being there, for his support and always willing to do almost all of the chores at home!!! =p haha! i know i shouldn't take my busy timetable in school as an excuse for slackin at home. haha.. =p that's why i wanna say i appreciate what dear have done... it's such an awesome experience to cohabitate and seeing him everyday! with my tight schedule in school being able to spend time with dear daily is sweet... the feeling is fulfillin and awesome! =) how nice is it to cook sth for ur loved one evry other day? how nice can it be to know that we are always there for each other... did i tel u that despite all ur rubbish and LAME jokes.. ur ever so wonderful... yeah.. like you say.. one year plus and we are still SO LOVING SIA.. hahaha..

baby i love you lots... =) *hugs!*

((to a friend))
qing ni yuan liang wo..

thursdays are evil

2006-03-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

spent like 3,4,5.... total of 7 hours in lab today! and it definitely isnt a good experience. to be stressed over what procedure to do next, pipeting the rite amount of substance. transfer to wells. stArt timing. measure the absorbance at the destined time. and tryin to avoid addin the wrong sample and stuff things up- which is like the worst feelin while in the lab.

man! this is a longg day.. basically, i hate thurs from now onwards.

the drama didn't end after lesson.. it was 5 when i was on my way home. since i was supposed to prepare dinner tonight.. i decided to head to Ti Amo to surprise dear with chilli mussels and carbonara before he reaches home at 6pm. we both have long days every thurs and i thought we should pamper ourselves with good food tonight. i was kinda rushin to get my wallet and hps and accidentally knocked ovr dear's leftover drink in his bottle onto his laptop! urgh! felt super bad.. now the key pad of his laptop doesn't work anymore.. most likely we gotta send it to repair... sigh.. so sad. and apparently, he'd have preferred pizza ovr mussels. but that's not the point huh? haha..

sigh... i just hope when the laptop dries up inside.. the keypads would start workin again....? pleaseeee? sigh

on a lighter note. i made lunch today! and packed one for my fren too since we wld be too busy to even line up at the cafeteria durin our lab sessions. and we ll be takin turns to prepare lunch for each other every thurs. she complimented the char shao chicken tastes great! wOO! so happy.. surely stayin out has compelled me to learn to cook.. and now i noe how to cOOk! this includes simple dishes lik spagh.. lamb n chicken chop.. hOR fUN, fried kway teow, egg noodles, bat kut tea, my fav laksa which comes with instant laksa premix sauces etc! haha. i oso learn how to mk new dessert dishes. hehe. it's really cool to learn to be independent while stayin out. but most of the times, its dear i have to depend on a great deal. haha. if not for him.. clothes wont be washed.. if not for him.. tables, chairs, fans, aircooler and the internet connection wont have been fixed. if not for him.. i wont have gained weight and learned the recipes he had gotten from his mom! haha. thanks babY!!!!! *HUGS*

peaceout

stress FULL

2006-03-08T18:00:00.000+08:00

it's been week 2 in school... and things are gettin out of hand.

-the lectures are boring and we cant slp 'cos the lecture is considerably smaller than before. but the lecturers are nice and helpful.

-the labs been tedious. i stuffed up with the procedures today... urgh... gotta make it up tml.. sigh..i am so behind time!

-the tutorials are gonna be super tensed.. we gotta do one presentation in front of the whole lecture in front of everybody!

my timetable? it's a four-day week. weekly contact hours: 23hrs

9am-3pm
8am-5pm
10am-5pm
9am-1pm

man, this is just s-t-r-e-s-s-ful.

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2006-03-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

u noe what is called puttin the prey at the lion's path?

F***king stupid.

if u dun have frenz.. u have to make frenz rite?

F***king simple.

in UWA library

2006-02-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

haven't had the chance to update this.
im back in perth. found a place to stay. done with my deferred papers.
and yesterday, i received a piece of sad news...

im stayin with dear in a 2 storey townhouse. other than the fact that the house is roach-infested.. other things are fine. we once caught a creature which we thot was a baby snake as it curled under our fans with its tails hangin out... after hittin it with dear's mighty weight.. it turn out that the slimy creature had got 4legs.. fortunately.. that it's some kind of harmless lizard.. or else i'd have freakout. well i almost did. haha.

hmm nth much comin up. will spend time slacking till the 27th feb when school reopens.

CNY was spent with my fren and her bf, her parents and dear. was quite a nice feelin to at least have the chance to lao yu sheng and steamboat. altho i had exams 2 days later.

something for dear and i to remember.. we flew a kite together on sunday =) it was really memorable.. partly cos the kite almOsT didn't wanna come down after it got stuck to the branches of a tree.. haha =p it was an achievement to see the kite fly as u run. but our job was easy. the wind was so strong that the kite remained in the sky while we sat on the grass, still holdin on to its strings... so COOl!!! haha =)

it's also fun that we have been drivin around everywhere whenever we like.. to freo.. subiaco.. the city which we regretted cos the parkin fees was daylight robbery!! all's fun though.. we went to the casino and i joined and membership and received lots of free coupons and a total of $7 cash and lots of free hot choco on the house. as much as i know how the casino works to attract customers with its free goodies.. we played a few rounds of Head or Tails. i won the 1st time we went there. lost the 2nd time.

we watched memoirs of the geisha the other day.. dear almost slpt.. haha. but i'd say its a good show with good plot and endin =p

off to fly kite later. tata.

hei se mao yi

2005-12-31T00:44:00.000+08:00

this is reli belated.. merry xmas to all.
just a quick update.
new year resolutions.
i will stick to 3 resolutions this year. nth can reli be fulfilled with too many commitments... can they?

1. 75% for pharm or physio if im not takin pharm....
2. enough Zzz. which i always lack.
3. initiative. in work or play.

like this particular song very much. but cldn't find e chi lyrics online... the chorus goes:

kan zhe na bai se de qing ting
zai kong zhong wang le qian jing
hai neng bu neng cong xin bian zhi
nao hai zong qi mao qiu de ji yi

zai shuo wo ai ni
ke neng ni ye bu hui ting
hei se mao yi cang zai na li
jiu rang hui yi yong yuan ting zai na li

sooooooo niceeeee....

sianness

2005-12-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

feeling: #$%^$@!
it's just one of the bad days i guess.. hopefully tml be better. or maybe not. (tml is the release of last semester results)
it feels like crap to learn that while everyone(well.. mostly at least) is chilling and havin fun durin this hols... i still have to study! wat the @!#$!!!

on a lighter note.. i just got my study table tidied up such that i can start muggin sooooooon.

mom nagged and said,"u should start studying, and help look after your brother! and help with the chores....."

(my parents are obviously bad at child planning. smtimes, i seriously pity my younger bro.)

oh man. wat abt the older one who's frequently goin back to hostel despite its holidays? does our house look like a hotel/motel/camp.. sm1 asked me why it's always me who buys dinner/lunch even when my elder bro is around and why it's me who had to go to younger bro's school and carry his pri 6 textbooks home.

thanks to that prince's "bo chap-ness"

HUGS U!

2005-12-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

hows life peeps?!?!

yea. new layout here. due to the surge of protest on my ugly blog. haha... got a new tagboard as well... if ur wondering how to go about to navigate... try clickin on the 5 square boxes on the left on the blog... it should bring ya to different sites on this blog... yup... the main page u saw as u click on my blog address is lyrics of a chinese song - jiu shi ai ni (love ya), by david tao. its a song for me and him. yup.. if u wan.. u can explore the rest of the pages too.. been eating alot since i came back... need to cut down alr.. and hopefully one of these days i can buy a pair of shoes to go joggin!

for nw... that's all folks.. will update again! cheers =)

back!!!

2005-11-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

im back in sg!!! so hotttttt... and im at my darling's place to online.... hopefully i can find a nice template cos i noe this one sucks. if u guys have finished exams.. jus knock off from work or jus woke up from an afternn nap.. call me ok?!! jio me outtttt! but pls do ask me out at night k! cos its bloody hot in the day... haha... =p

sorry for the lack of updates. wont have the chance to update v often. exams have unofficially ended. why do i say its unofficial... i had 2 papers on the 18th nov... after burning 2 consequtive nights of midnight oil.. i realised i cldn't finish muggin both subjects! n on account that i wasn't feelin well during the period of exams.. and was super stressed due to the quota limitation for pharmacology (the school only take in 40 3rd yeaR pharm students) and i am dyin to take pharm as my major as well as honors (hopefully)... i decided in the early mornin of the exams(18 nov) to take a medical cert to defer my physio paper wich happened to be in the morn.... however.. due to unforseen circumstances... i also deferred phaRmacology wich was the afternn paper... DUN ask me y... i sat down... did the 60 mcq wich were SUPER haRD (trust me it really was killer) and was prayin the essay qns were easier to balance out with the mcq.... reluctantly, i flipped to the essay qns where we were assigned to do 5 out of 7.... i barely finished the 2nd qn and cldn't tk it.. it was freakin hardddddd~!!!!! right syerna?? right ling?? i looked at the girl who sat diagonal of me. saw her script. cldnt see the tiny words of cos... but i obviously saw her messy handwriting.. and she was vigorously scribbling nonstop and her paper looked like my GP essay in JC times.. *gasp* it definitely was demoralising..... so it was partly that wich made me raise my hand and leave the examination hall without attemptin the rest of the essay qns.... there goes my physio and pharm... haha... call me a loser for not attempting the qns... in technical terms... the qns were undoable without the notes! one qn which i attempted was on benzodiazepam... who noes what that is??? who noes the mechanism of action.. all the benefits and major effects of that drug??? and its origins??? pharmacology students have 101 drug names to memorise. what makes e school tink benzodiazepam is so special that we noe eVery single detail abt the drug!!! urghhhh... trust me, that qn wasnt the worst. the other qns(except for the one on contraception. that qn was exceptionally easy) was a total disaster. and that means the 40 outstanding students can then be chosen to undertk 3rd year pharm.. and that also means that i have to return to perth early to retake the papers... 3 boos! for i have to MUG durin the holidays... wthhhh...... but anyhw..... that was the most viable decision... and i tink i made a wise decision by takin defer.. haha!! who with an MC wld sit there and finish the paper? fuck u for being smarter than me! hahahAha.... =p jus kiddin.

p/s: i passed my driving test! :)

k den. shall update again... see u guys sooooooon... to frenz in NUS, goodluck with ur exams!!

peaceout.

at the start, preparing for the 100m race

2005-10-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

haven't had time to post entry recently.. though i was online most times.. but was always bugged endlessly with assignments... tests... reports... finally.. i managed to finish everything and make an effort to update my diary... er.. i know the template sucks. i don't like.. but probably won't have the time to revamp it anytime soon... unless im really free OR bored.. or it muz be because im running away from reality and is hiding in my room thinking its the school's holidays... which is crap. haha... yupp anyhow... i just had a test today... which made me mug till wee hours of the day... and im tired... in less than tWO weeks wld be our exams... i dread knowing each day passes like cars speeding past you... i haven't even started on revision... had been pia-ing reports and assignments till they took a toll on me... though i dun think i ll fail any units... because it's highly impossible even if you try not to pass, i think guilt will take over you one way or another.. and ultimately, you'd still end up muggin (like mad) for the exams... well i duno abt the others.. but at least that's the case for me.. so much for feeling the urge to mug at the last minute... bOO!! man.. this sucks la...

anyway.. i'll be returning back sg on the 22nd nov... will be taking the SQ226 flight and will reach sg at around 9.30pm... yup... as for now.. gotta face the coming exams..

05/11/2005
-920202-Biochem.Regul.Cell Funct.202 theory

11/11/2005
-920202-Biochem.Regul.Cell Funct.202 practical

15/11/2005
-920230-Molecular Genetics 230

18/11/2005
-980245-Physiology Of Cells 245
-960230-Systems Pharmacology 230

geez... i duno how im gonna face this... we have two papers on the 18 nov... both of which are my majors! =( and not to mention... i ll be having my driving test after the 1st paper in early nov... ooh.. really looking forward to driving though i doubt my abilities to pass it the 1st time! but... the main thing is i dun look forward to my academic exams... how..?

do keep me in your prayers...

god bless to all who are having a tough time now... be it having exams/tests/projects etc... cheers... =)

peaceout.

to you:

"jiu shi ai ni ai ze ni.. fang zai ni shou xin can lan de xing fu quan gei ni..."
[jiu shi ai ni-david tao]

13 oct 4.45am

2005-10-13T04:46:00.000+08:00

B r O k e n.

.religion and free-will.

2005-09-30T03:12:00.000+08:00

sigh.. humans are contradicting creatures hey... eg. u noe u wanna eat bi bim bap (a korean dish.. v nice.. ).. yet u said to him that u werent tempted... why did i say "no"? hmm.. weird... i reckon humans like to play guessin games.. or perhaps girls wanna see if he understands u enough to read ur mind instead of plainly digest wat u said? hmm.. interestin... however, if ur tinkin only girls play guessin games.. ur wrong!

dear has gone to mandurah with his cell mates for a couple of days... i decided against goin with him.. it feels weird for me... to go to his cell is weird enough let alone to camp with them... i mean yes they are nice.. but i am not used to fellowships anymore.. u gotta sing hillsongs.. read bible together and talk about god and how mighty He's.... *shrug* i can be a believer.. but i don't put the word- god, on my mouth all the time... i tend more to talk logic and sense rather than to bring myself to commit to supernatural beings.. i do encourage having a religion though.. 'cos in that sense.. we know that's always hope.. and holding on to hope is vErrry(may i emphasize) important.. we know we are being watched upon and are forgiven for our sins.. when we are helpless.. we cant say we live for some human for human dies.. then do we kill ourselves too? no! however.. at the lowest point of life... we'd be able to pull ourselves up if we say we live for god.. 'cos believers like us believe He's immortal.. and that He lives forever... religion is free-will... u wan to believe in one or not is up to u.. just like these are my personal choice and opinion on religion.. i can commit, but only when i have given myself time.. i once told someone that i'd convert when im 21... now that im this old... i feel that im not ready... as told, religion is free-will.. not sth that can be forced! till the time rip.. we shall see... =)

well.. this time.. dear contradicted himself by sayin.. not leavin my side 'cos he will miss me... and yet, went ahead with the camp which lasts for 3days.. hehe.. but i did tell him it's ok to go ahead la... i mean this is religion-related.. and it's free-will... cheers.. =)

it's about 340 in the mornin now... im about to turn in... don't think anyone will see this entry at this hr... dear called at 12 before he was about to kun... by now he should be already concussed... hmm im not super sad 'cos of his absence (there's nth to be sad abt.. =) rite??) jus that im not used to dear not ard... he never fails to tuck me in bed... ahhhh.. i miss u baby...

living on drugs...

2005-09-28T05:58:00.000+08:00

its daybreak.. im tired.. had a bath but couldn't slp... my body itches.. i have no any slight idea wat im allergic to... the rash nv cease... i just popped a pill.. waiting for it to take effect b4 i can slp in peace... red marks are spreaded all over my neck.. across my face n distributed scarcely over my body... im living on drug n hope this drug doesn't give up on me.. urgh... i feel itchy... man.. this sucks.

regarding drug usage, i just managed to complete a 2000 wd essay during the holidays... it's about the need for lifestyle drugs... it'll bore u if i go into details.. was thinkin abt drugs used against allergy... allergy is considered a lifestyle problem 'cos it isn't very much deadly... debates against the use of lifestyle drugs has been on-going thru out the decade. they may not be important. but they make a difference to the quality of life of people.. and this means alot to the developed countries... i nEEd zyrtec... or else... i'll lose more precious slppp.... Zzzz...

*write a letter to convey words in the best way, because nothing will interrupt thoughts...

pictures are better. they speak a thousand words...

but only action brings out words, without having to write or speak them...

love, tiffany

PRS 2005

2005-09-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

Perth Royal Show 2005.... the only pity was we left before the fireworks! everyone was jus tired... haha.. but other than that... everythin else is just FUN =p yeahh... the both of us spent a total of $160... alot huh.. haha... well ya... each of us gotta pay $18 for the entrance fee... then there were lots and lots of fOOOD =p and games stations where u get the chance to win small n huge huggies.. and most of all.. there were so many fun rides! haha... its so fun i tell ya... next time i wanna go again! =p here are the pics....

welcome to the haunted house.. beware... but turned out to be a kiddy ride!

the python loop... ooh this is fun! haha....

the mega drop... wOO! 40 metres high....

the guys and i before we are sentenced.... why were we smiling.. hmm..

this is exciting... hahaha!

clones? colored lambs.. they dyed their 'hair' i guess.... haha.

kiss me mr camel.... im nOt scared...

view of the amusement park from the ferris wheel... nice...?

lastly... here is the prizes darling won for me! =p

iloveyou sweetheart...

i like the green-hat timmy! he's a fairy.... haha...

i heard fireworks will happen everyday till the show ends in Oct... hope one of these days can go to the showground to catch a glimpse of it... cheers...

that's all folks...

promises are a,b,c..

2005-09-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

Accept this-- promises are made to be broken.

yeah.. i mean come on.. we are humans... what we say in one moment will change due to circumstances... same for what we promise... like for eg... if a guy promises his gf for a holiday trip to a phuket for a rendevous... but on the nite(day.. watever!) before they left for phuket... came tsunami... everything was destroyed... dead bodies everyplace.... the entire beach was wiped out... can't expected the guy to fulfill his promise.. rite... that's the 'circumstance' in this senario....

yeah... let's face it. promises are no difference from normal words made up of letters... a,b, c....z.

don't take them too hard..
shan't take them to heart..

'cos it hurts

and it sucks

cheers..

sept holidays!

2005-09-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

bonjour everyone =)

im having my 2 weeks of hols now.. hmm not planning to go elsewhere for tours or day trips and stuff.. wanna save $$$... so broke.. bleh.. there ll be perth royal show coming up on the 24th Sept - 1st Oct.. its like a funfair.. a grand one which is held to commemorate the Queen's birthday... yea... from wat i noe.. it's a yearly thing.. they have got fun rides.. dog shows.. horses.. cattles etc.. animal competitions.. bars.. and they have built mini trains and route within the vicinity to transport passengers from one place to the next destination... haha.. cool eh... sounds super big to me... there will also be lots of games (which isnt cheap!) we can participate in and win prizes that range from a mini toy to a big teddy bear.... there'll also be showbags for us to buy home... the cost of showbags ranges from products to products.. but the whole package is worth much less than the retail cost. and they said there will be fireworks on the first day of the funfair... waH... i wanna go man!! =D haha... yeah.. saving( i mean putting aside) $150 for the fair!! wOOO! hahaha.... its held at Claremont... if no one is driving... i guess.. we'd have to take a bus there.. which i hope is possible... i dowan to miss this chance hey....

here is something to funny... i was having my pharm lecture the other day... was with some of my ger friends... then came a guy fren "A" who was with his guy fren "B".. "B" wasn't one of the familiar faces we'd see in pharm lecture... and i was thinkin "omg... B looked familiar... like someone i saw in the picture of my fren's bday celebration.... " and i told my fren, "KR"(she's the girl "A" wants to intro "B" to..) abt it... =p and was teasin her abt the incident.. but after a while... i forgot abt the whole thing... it was mooncake festival organised by SSS yesterday... dear was incharged of transporting the people to King's park.. i didn't tag along cos i had steamboat =p but that wasn't the point... it was until i finished my steamboat and dear came back from the event... he said that "A" asked "B" to tag along to the pharm lecture to have a peek at my fren... hahaha! ok... i shouldn't be laughin.. thanks to "A" for makin that matchmake session.. hahaha... KR is a nice girl.. "B" is a nice guy too.. oh and "B" said KR looks cute.. i like it move it move it.. haha.. =)

we took a stroll along the matilda bay in the afternoon... it was nice.. though there was a little drizzling... it was nice... =) WOOO! at night, we cooked hainanese chicken rice and chicken... =) darling bought the chicken thighs and drumsticks from northbrigde... we also bought Prima's premade ingredients and sauces... the whole sauce packet(s) cost lik $5.. but it turned out nice! we boiled the soup with chicken bones and meat... added the soup base into the pot... made the rice using the soup base instead of tap water... we also added the fragrance oil (from the premix packet), garlic and sesame oil to the rice... it tastes fantastic! =) i had no strength to chop the chicken into edible sizes so dear had to do the job... i sliced the raw salmon into small pieces. yeah.. its sashimi with wasabi and lousy brand soya sauce.. =p yum! im bloated.... haha..

this is our 9th month anniversary.... =) love you darling! *hugs*

stuck on the computer

2005-09-04T03:46:00.000+08:00

how terrible is it to miss all your lectures of the week??? gee.. i missed all my 8 lectures in the week. didn't attend ANY lecture at all the week before last week.. -_- felt really really bad... missed 7 out of 8 lectures last week. urGh! bOO... i owe myself so many ilectures now...

gee... 1 thing for sure... that i am not focussing on my studies... my assigments and tests prove it all.. almost all my units are deteriorating by 1 grade! doesn't sound bad? what about scoring 8 out of 15 for a test? last semester... the lowest score i have ever gotten was 12??! omg... sigh.. even for my pharm lab report.. i have never gotten 6 out of 10 before....

BUT.. i am definitely looking forward to next week.. when our 2 weeks of school holidays starts! hahaha... =D

eight months + one day

2005-08-18T19:00:00.000+08:00

"i duno la.
i have no freaking idea.
i really dun understand.
*SWIRL SWIRL SWIRL SWirl... swirl... swirl... swirl.... *
twirled into a maelstrom of confusions....."

i don't understand why i am so restless....
i mean it's already the 5th week into this semester....
yet i have no drive to hit the books....
*URGH!!! AHHhhh.....!!!* ! !#&*@)^^&*(!

maybe it's time to ignore the unncessary disturbances and start concentrating!

-the story is in the soil. put your ear on the ground.-

Untitled

2005-08-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

Untitled (Simple Plan)

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

somethings that are said would hurt.
somethings that are felt would be apparent.
somethings which you disfavour would happen.
somethings you anticipate would turn out otherwise.
let's just say the world is flawed.
nothing will always turn out your way.
it's not easy to hold fine sand between your fingers.
i know you tried.
despite the dream, you showed it all fine.
just to let you know.
so did i.

sorry peeps.. haven't been updating my blog eh.. gee.. been rather busy lately.. having lots of reports due. having a test this coming week. so busy... sighh.. and yeahh.. i took the driving theory test weeks ago and passed the test... now, how i wish dad would let me continue my driving lesson and take my test here...!

hmm regarding relationship stuff.. shan't talk much about it. but yeah.. we still love each other and we are getting more and more inseparable.. even crashing each other's lecture nowadays.. gee.. if you wanna know more.. ask me =p

lastly.. take care...
peaceout...

new resolutions

2005-07-20T15:18:00.000+08:00

sch's has started... timetable is out... mine kinda sucks.. monday, 9-5. tues, 8-5... other days are not any better.. after each lect, there'd be a break before the next... grrr.. don't know what i'm gonna do during the one hour breaks man...

resolution for this semester... invite 1 or 2 HD back.. avoid any "Pass" grade. try to make improvements. for the past 1 and a half years here.. my grades have gone from 2 High Dist, 1 Dist, 1 Credit, to 3 Dist, 1 Credit to.... 2 Dist 2 Credit... you see the trend?? all my grades are going towards Credit... nononono...

yesterday was special.. we went to the C Restaurant in the city for dinner.. well... initially i wanted to blindfold dear... but seeing him so reluctant.. as the bday boy.. i let him off.. haha.. anyway, C restaurant's really cool... dear didn't expect me to take him there. i'm just so glad it was a pleasant surprise for him... =) the restaurant is at the 33rd floor of AAPT building. like compass rose in Singapore.. the C restaurant spins too... so coool! especially when you go there at night.. you'd be able to see the city lights, the prominent buildings like the Westbank building and the tower.. there's also a 'live' perfomance by a pianist throughout our meal.. cool.. thumbs up for its ambience. apart from the ambience and the super good service.. the pigeon meat is deliciouuuus! dear's soft shell crab is good too. other than that... the other food we ordered was just normal lo.. not really fantastic.. just normal. people must have thought we were 2 idiots who kept taking pictures before and after our meals.. haha..

after that we watched 'White Chicks' which is realllllly funny lor! haha.. there's this bumbo in the show called 'tiffany wilson'.. stupid dear kept teasing me lor.. >_< haha.. it was 12am.. i excused myself to the toilet and brought the cheesecake i baked the night before to his room and sang bday song lo... hehe.. that was my third attempt to bake the cake.. the previous 2 trials were ok.. until the last and MOST crucial attempt.. i mixed the almond to the biscuit layer when supposedly it should be mixed with the cheese layer! hiyo.. that really made me panick for a while.. but it turned out to be pretty nice.. *phew.. so relieved that the cake tasted ok... all the running here and there.. get teased by ruby and chany when i cut the lemon into wedges to squeeze. mixing the wrong ingredients together. stuffed up the icing.. buying the ingredients. washing the apparatus each time i finished baking.. hiding from dear what i have been doing has paid off.. yay! =)

happy birthday darling.. hope you like the rugby shirt and the card that goes with it.. =)

BLOND???

2005-07-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

DEAR DIARY...

im back.. with something new. yUP! i just cut and dye my hair.. and i LOOK like a stupid blond.. grrrr... i mean i didn't tell the hairdresser i wanted this bright, light brown for my hair color lorr... eeyer... >_< i'd prefer my previous dye.. but anyhow.. what's done is done.. worse come to worse i'd just buy another darker hair dye and do it again. er.. but overall.. it's O..K.. lor.. haha.. yup.. the hairstylist was really polite and easy going.. he gave me a frEE hair treatment for the expensive haircut cum dye.

gee.. so far i have been having lots of wonderful time with huiqin, melvyn and his friends and housemates.. sunday we had a day trip to swan valley to try wine, cheese and chocolates.. =) as usual we had DUCK meat at the same restaurant. but sadly, the standard has dropped! as compared to one year ago.. gee..

yesterday i treated them to TiAmo. yeah two thumbs up for that restaurant. all the food we ordered tasted fAnTastic. i had carbonara. hq had caesar salad while melvyn had the lamb rib. we also shared bushetta and MELTED choco mud cake! wahhhh simply deliciouuuuuus! =p after that we headed to carousel to play Taboo with their housemates.. this game is basically like The Pyramid. where you have to describe a word to each other and see if ur team guesses correctly.. the team that has more points win. melvyn hq and me were in 1 team while jess and her bf, zen, formed another team. it was funny to see hUIQIN (especially) do lots of funny actions to describe words we had to guess.. =p haha.. oh ya.. i have a vivid memory of one word which i had to describe to hq and melyvn. it was "FIRM". the first thing which came to my mind was women's "assets" if you know what i mean. haha.. i was laughing even before i could start. haha.. but i couldn't say "woman's AHEM are...?" rite??!! i mean there were guys around.. and their GFs are around too... haha.. so instead i asked,"lawyers work in a...?" then huiqin shouted "FIRM!" yayyy! correct! hahaha.. =p

hope hq and melvyn had fun.. =) they should be on the plane heading back to sg now.. bon voyage... shall see her again next year febuary.. cheers...

while hq is going back sg.. darling is returning tomorrow! =) he bluffed me saying he would be returning only on sunday when actually he booked a thursday midnight flight.. the funny part is.... he exposed himself by accident. hahahaa..! when he thought he could give me a surprise, he blurted something which he most probably regretted saying.. and he ended saying "OH SHIT!" hoR? darling? haha.. =p but it's really sweet of you.. *hugs* =) i know you miss me.. miss me!! haha.. but yeah! 22hours more you'll reach perth!!!

*HUGS* love youuu* ! =)

oh and and.. i got my results.. not TOO bad.. 2 credits and 2 distinctions.. cheers =) shall TRY and work harder this coming semester... hopefully i can double major in pharmaco and physio... jiayou everyone.. jiayou especially to peeps having A Levels...

DOLPHINS!!!!

2005-07-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

yeaH!! today we set off to rockingham in anticipation to go to penguin island.. it was an hour drive to our destination.. sadly, when we reach there, we were told the island was temporary closed till september!! it was kinda disappointing initiallly. when we thought our hopes were dashed, the staff told us we can watch dolphins at mandurah, which was another half and hour drive down. haha.. yupp!! so for just $11 each. we set off in a ferry out sea! that was my first experience- seeing dolphins out in the open sea! wOOhOOOOOOOO!!!

here are the pictures of the dolphins...! soooo cute leh!

the four girls! =)

beautiful houses we saw along the river..... wOOOOOOOOOOO! so nice!

beautiful sunshine!

and last but not least, we had the best pizza in the world up up a mountain. at this place called Caboolture...

heh.. we had choco and cheese pizza... yummmmmm!! we also ordered two family sized oyster and fellucine pizza.. ok la.. i prefer the dessert pizzas.. haha.. yup.. try savoury pizzas at broadway pizza. especially its Meat Lovers with BBQ sauce. they are still the best =)

i really had lots of fun today.. especially to have the chance to see so many dolphins in my life.. haha.. =) i was standing at the front of the ferry. then when huiqin was about to take a photo of me.. i looked down and saw dolphins swimming under me!! and i just went screaming "dolphins!!!" haha.. soo coool.. they just love to swim as fast as the ferry.. just kept following us.. whee~ yeah.. it's cool. way too cool man! whenever we see the dolphins we'd just go screaming "there there there dolpins!!" like 5 idiots.. haha.. 'cos the rest of the passengers just remained seated while only us were standing at the front of the ferry looking out for dolphins... haha =p hmm i hope i have the chance to see them again.. took videos of them too.. when i looked closer to the videos i took.. i realise the dolphins made stunts too!! almost like those u'd only get to see in the zoo.. haha.. they are so cute! =)

darling has reached singapore... miss him la.. gee.. can't wait till school starts.. 'cos that's when he returns...

i like roxy, ripcurl and billabong. i don't like rusty.

2005-07-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

yoooooo..

i just watched initial d... the show was in cantonese with chinese and malay subtitles.. with my lousy chinese language standard.. i had a hard time trying to catch every word said but to no avail.. =( though some parts are really funny the ending isn't a happy one.. gee felt sad for jay eh.. some people say jay chou can't act. it's true that he can't cry for nuts. look at him when he saw his girl with another guy.. he tried to cry.. ermm i guess he gotta try harder leh.. haha.. but apart from that, the character he's in suits him very well.. heh. oooh ya.. he won edison chen. wahahaha.. ok i know that's not the point =p from an objective view, if you anticipate the show to be filled with adrenaline-driven races and full-forced drifting techniques perfomed by the actors.. Fast and Furious might suit you better.. 'cos Initial D movie is catered not just for guys but generally for everyone. it has a good balance between comedy, love and action.. i give 4 stars.. (ehhh.. partly 'cos got jay n edison. oops! hahaha.. )

for the past 2 days i have been staying overnight at hq's place.. showing them around in the city.. had them to try Mr Samurai and showed them where the surf shops are. the girls. hq and jess spent most of their time in the surf shops anyway.. hehe.. =p

and please note! DON'T ever try Centrifino. it's expensive and the food doesn't taste good.. gee.. TiAmo currently has the nicest carbonara i have since tasted.. =)

today, thursday, we spent our time in carousel for the entire afternoon. they even abandoned the idea of going to King's Park due to melvyn's stomach upset.. there were lots of sales going on in jayjays, cotton on, birkenstork in the city! (the girls' fav), buss, and many more... so yup we carried on shopping till the evening. i spent the least as expected.. merely bought 2 tops from Cotton on and a pair of dangling earings while hq and jess splurged on bags, clothes and jeans.. not surprising, we spent most of the time in the surf shops (again). haha.. =p gee.. it's a pity that Myer's sales is over. if not, hq would have been able to buy her Marc ecko/Guess watch. at night, we were there at carousel again.. this time melvyn and hq spent a total of $81 on swEEts, TimTam, VeGeMite, NateLLa, pOtatO chiPs... tell me how not to gain 2kg huiqin??? at the same time, i am gaining weight together with her.. omg.. hahahaa... she keeps complaining she's growing fat. which isn't the case.. cheerup mate. WE are not fat!! ermmm.. hmmm.. yea.. haha... =p oh ya.. we had Concas for dinner. chilli mussels and a supreme pizza.. chilli mussels.. simply delightful! =) well.. the pizza is so-so.. can't be compared with broadway pizzaaaa.....

tomorrow i finally can take a good rest.. can chill and relax before saturday comes and we are off for more programmes..!

darling.. if you happen to read this.. do enjoy yourself in penang.. tkcare of yourself and most importantly don't eat uncooked/half-cooked food ok? you know we are 2780 miles apart...? i am counting the days you return to singapore and the days you return to perth too.. i miss youuu.. love you lotS.. *hugs*

peaceout.

i have got visitors =)

2005-07-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

huiqin is here! yEaH! =p

that girl arrived last friday with her boy.. they are staying at an apartment of a friend in carousel. it's about 20mins drive to my hall.. glad they have a car! =p

saturday i met up with them for dim sum BUFFET at Sunrise Chinese Restaurant! the lunch only costs $11. that's really cheap! apart from the normal kind of dim sum dishes.. the soya bean curd is simply deliciousssss... really smooth and sweet. or maybe way toooo swwweeeeet.. haha. yup.. but an incident pissed me off lor.. grrrr.. but nvm it was minor. it was just great to see huiqin la! =)

hiyo.. anyway, anyway that friend who let them stay at his place is really friendly! he's a great host man.. kept asking us how the food was.. did we enjoy ourselves.. blah blah.. yeaaah so easy to get along with.. and his house has 2 living rooms each with 2 beds. one of the the living room also have a couch to sleep on. there are 3 rooms. all with beds too.. wOOO.. his house is always ready for guests hor.. haha..

sunday we woke up as early as 830am to go fremantle.. im so proud of myself. 'cos i know the way there!! wahahahaa... we went there for breakfast.. and headed to freo market to buy groceries. they sure have cheap and fresh strawberries.. yummmm! they bought honey too.. it was pretty cheap too.. hehe.. we spent like half a day in freo market as well as the E Shed Market. shucks.. it was a pity that freo don't sell meat.. her bf spent most of the time munching food.... >_< they'll grow fat within these 2weeks.. but i dOwan to end up like themmmm..... haha.. oh ya! the E Shed Market sells deliciousssss strawberry with chocolate fudge!!! wOOOOOO!! there was one stall that sells frozen strawberries.. i prefer another one which sells unfrozen ones... with chocolate fudge on top of it is simply delightful.. =) the 2 of them are scary... we had a heavy breakie at 10am.. as we were shopping around they bought sweet corn, banana and strawberry chocolate fudge to munch on.. i have no idea how they managed to swallow half a chicken at nandos for lunch.. so sinful *shakehead. hahaha... =p it was fun to stay overnight at their place.. we took away red roaster for dinner.. oMG... so much food that can normally last you for 2days is consumed within one day... haha.. in one night.. we finished 2 movies.. namely the white ninja and Matilda! both are quite funnnyy.. =p but it's even more funny to see the two lovebirds bicker even over what show to watch. haha.. yeah.. ended up.. huiqin watched Ranma series in one living room while her bf, melyvin, watched the simpsons in the other living room.. win already lor.. hahaha.. *penGz.

melvyn is sick. he vomited 3 times within one day.. gosh.. his condition was rather bad.. it might be because he drank 3 bottles of 'Lift' lemon juice which led to over-excessive stomach.. ahemmm his gf (who's none other than huiqin) could still say.. "you must have drank too much 'Lift' which lifted all your food out from your guts" ... so lame leh.. haha.. but what she said was so corny. made me laugh till i *fainted* =p

but clement said most likely he got infected by virus. they are very vibrant during winter which makes me ponder in such a cold weather why are they more active.. hmmm.. since he was not feeling well he rested at home while huiqin and i met up with chany, ruby and terry at harbourtown for shopping! errr.. other than the lunch we had at subway and the play station game ruby bought.. we didn't buy anything else. huiqin didn't buy anything toooooo... *amazed* haha.. all the stuff sold were winter clothes.. that eplains why she didn't buy.. =p we chilled at northbridge's Utopia after that.. the hot steamy yum-made balls tasted fantastic. *slurps* then i introduced red bean sago to the hq. hehe.. thereafter, she joined me for currie hall dinner.... eh but i have to say the cook was in good mood 'cos the steamed chicken is pleasing enough.. =)

tomorrow, i am making plans to meet up the girl while her bf gets more rest at home. i might just go find them at their place and take the woman to city.. hehe.. most probably i might stay at their place overnight again..

some of my jc friends have gone to hk for holidays.. jiayi. miaoru. suhui and shuzhen.. so cooool.. how i wish to go hk some day too.. hope ya'll enjoy yourselves... =)

chany just passed me the Initial D show...! jay chouuuuu.... how i yearn for more time so that i can watch the movie!.. i shall watch it another time when i have more time.. *yawwwwwwn* gotta wakeup at 9am to go find hq.. i think i ought to sleep soon..

hope all of ya enjoys your hols! do treasure the times with your family and friends ya.. =)

darling.. i miss youuuu toooooo.. though we just talked on the phone. imagine i have to see 2 lovebirds everyday... bOOO... i miss you. i wanna hug you. i wanna kiss you goodnight before you sleep and pinch your fats while you are asleep. hahahahaa.. =p kidding nia. but pooh really misses you and i reaaaally love you baby.. *hugs*

peaceout~

holidays

2005-06-29T12:21:00.000+08:00

wats up peeps!
it's the winter break now..! =p
simply adore these 2 seasons, autumn and winter.. cold and peaceful.. simply nice..

well i have just moved to my new room. it isn't as new as my old room.. but i like the way it looks.. kinda cosy with dim lights. unlike my previous room. and somehow i feel more at home.. but when school reopens.. i wonder how im gonna study in this environment.. here is a picture of it:

my room

well.. just some updates of what i have done so far after my papers.. monday was kinda depressing.. dear went back singapore.

yesterday went liann's place for steamboat. it was our lunch + dinner = lunchner.. haha.. well after that we sat down at her cosy room and chatted.. about our characters and relationships.. comments about me were, i am strong. i tend not to share personal things with many people. i listen more than i talk. like when they talked, things went thru my mind. i'll evaluate them before i say anything.. if there's a problem.. i wanna have it solved asap.. yea.. i guess as we grow up.. we are moulded the way we are.. i believe if i am borned in another environment.. i won't be who i am now.. lessons make us grow stronger.. we just gotta accept somethings as they are 'cos not everything can be the way we want them to be.. sometimes we ought to look on the bright side too.. as i said before.. every situation we are in.. (no matter how bad the situation's.. ) makes us grow and shape the way we are now.. if we fall.. we have to stand up and walk again.. life still goes on.. yup so thus i am thankful for those who came into my life and left.. and most importantly the present people who are in my life.. 'cos without them.. there won't be me..

dear.. i miss you. like crazy.. come back quick... i love you. and just you..

OVER

2005-06-24T13:54:00.000+08:00

yes! the bloody exams is finally OVER!!! i have been anticipating this for sOOOO lonnnngggg.... and it's here finally! hahahaa.. i couldn't help but smile the moment the invigilator said, "time's up. no more writting"~~~ wOO i felt a huge relieve, like one heavy rock lifted from my back. this feeling is simply GREAT. WOOOO~~!!!

however, despite this transient joy, i reckon sooon the nightmare will return! the results is gonna haunt me... oh man.. hahaha.. but for the next 2weeks or so.. it's gonna party time~!!! woOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hOOOOOOOO!!

chEErs =D

winter, maple leaves and rain..

2005-06-17T07:03:00.000+08:00

woo just finished two of my worse subjects namely biochemistry and genetics. still got another biochem lab paper this coming saturday... wahlao saturday leH..

anyway, biochemistry paper was kinda ok.. JUST THAT i am idiot enough to erase the right answer. instead, i wrote the wrong answer down.. it was part (ii) and was linked to (iii) so i got both parts wrong.. i think i will lose close to 10marks just on the two parts 'cos it was an essay question.. how bad is that.. totally screwed up la..

genetics... i got nothing to say.. kinda screwed up the entire paper. out of 4 essay questions i can only answer 1. all my answers were less than 1 page.. 15marks for each question leh.... bleaH..

after saturday, i am left with pharmacology and physiology papers... BOTH are what i wanna major in... hopefully i can get into pharmaco in 3rd year 'cos only top 40% of the cohort can major in that unit.. boo..

anyway unfortunate enough, recently i have got rashes. how coincidental to have rashes during my exams period.. and this is the first time i have got rash... >_< what's wrong?? it's like sO itchy!! mostly around my neck area and around my body. went to consult Dr Bong. she didn't diagnose the cause of the rash. but she did prescribe me with a very strong cream and tablets. just the medication costs me a grand $55 bucks! it kinda amused me for a while.. haha.. but anyhow i am ok now... yea that's the cost for effective remedy eh.. fair enough. but the rash just keeps recurring and recurring.. never-ending.. gee..

did i say that i am official living a nocturnal life, again?? haha.. =p i have been sleeping at weird hours like 5pm and waking up at 1am in the morning to mug... >_< haha.. like yesterday, i woke at 2am and studied till 1pm and went straight for my genetics paper.. pOweR... hMM.. have to say i can concentrate alot better at night. 'cos it's more peaceful and most conducive for mugging... cheers!

i realise something though. that i am sO nOt worried. sO nOt anxious for my exams... it's so not like me. i mean last year i panicked and mugged like hell for human biology... i don't wanna lose that "fEEling".. i wanna be worried. then will i wOrk hard. being stressed is gOOd just as long as we aren't over-stressed. being stressed at the right level will somehow increase my productivity level. ask me if i have revised totally before going for my human biology paper last year. my answer would have been "yes".

i wish i can say "yes" for pharmaco and physiology..

hq is coming to visit me real sOOOOn... her bf is coming along with her.. so sweet eh.. hehe.. she has been sending emails to me. and bugging me to send her my shopping list.. but there's so much stuff i wanna get from singapore..... gee.. can't wait for exams to be over. so many things for me to look forward to... wOOO!! yay~~

and last of all...

happy SIX months darling...!!! dear asked his friends to takeaway roasted duck and bubble tea for our dinner. it was nice!! yummmm! hehe i still remember there was another anniversary or something earlier. he bought roasted duck and bubble tea too.. haha.. =p but it was really sweet of him. he gave me a beanie not long after i bought him that jersey! the beanie's billabong's.. he likes to see me wear that.. especially when he's stressed...! haha.. whenever i wear it, he will laugh at me! hmph! but the beanie is nice! its white.. got that kinda "punk" feeling leh. haha but i really appreciate his gesture la.. thanks dear! =) *hugs*

sigh, for now it's back to mugging... sian.. wish me all the best k? =p
god bless all..

peaceout~

Making the RIGHT choice is to CHOOSE to be HAPPY..

2005-06-11T09:25:00.000+08:00

gee.. just had a discussion with a very close friend regarding the 'JOY' of being attached... it's my examination period now. i can't help but post this entry...

my friend was joking about how desperate she was and how much she yearned to have a bf.. so i said to her.. that The One will come someday.. as a causal remark, i suggested her not to pick just any tom dick or harry on the street 'cos at the end of the day.. what's the point of getting attached, breaking off and getting hurt? my dear friend replied saying she knows and won't do that. nevertheless, she wishes for an acceptable guy who can be there to share her woes and happiness.. hMM that's naturally what every girl or perhaps most girls hope for... isn't it? regarding having a relationship or not.. i told her it's most appropriate to yearn and not beg for one.. the common saying.. "ke yi bu ke qiu".. and so i told her that at the meantime, be happy.. because, being single and happy are not mutually exclusive! in a relationship.. there are pros and cons.. there are quarrels you'd have to endure.. there are each other's flaws we'd have to accept.. but more often than not, the pros outweigh the cons.. then again, my friend said," despite all the downs that having a him would get, its much xin fu (=blessed) than being alone..."

now, the question comes. what does being alone mean? it means that you're single.. but does it mean you'd be lonely? where's your family? most importantly, what about your friends? being alone means one is single.. but it doesn't make you a lonely person! you'll always have friends.. she's already xin fu.. she has friends and a complete family.. whenever she needs someone to lean on.. her friends will be there for her...

what about a bf? a bf will be there for her.. just like a very very close confidant and true friend.. i must admit that having a bf is wonderful.. 'cos he'll bring you lots of happiness and more happiness.. you'd get pampered and well-taken care of.. yup it's so true that you'd have a huge pillar to lean on.. =p but a bf is a bf.. a bf isn't a husband.. IF for some reasons, a couple breaks up.. would he still be there for her? there's a slight possiblilty that they remain as friends but it's hard... a husband will be there for her. yes.. but an ex is very unlikely to remain as a good friend with his(or her) ex.. i asked of my dear friend be happy being a single. take being attached (to a GOOD bf) as a bonus to her blessings.. because throughout most times of our lives, we'd very likely be married. through out my 20yrs i had been single. if we were to sulk throughout our singlehood years.. what's the meaning of life? out of how many years in our lives will we be in courtship? rarely will the period of courtship exceed 10yrs...

in mathematical terms, if you were to live till a reap old age of 80 years old.. assuming we are singles till the age of 18. in idealistic terms, we are attached to a fantastic boyfriend in our 1st relationship... from 18 to 28 we are attached to him. courtship period = 28 - 18 = 10 years.. from hypothesis, at the age of 28, he proposes and you get married.. married years= 80 - 28 = 52 years... from this idealistic view... we'd be single for 18yrs.. while attached for 10 years.. some of us find our life partner a little later than others. but that's ok! courtship years rarely reach 10 years.. in this society we live in.. people even get married after a few months of courtship.. [note: in this circumstance, i assume cohabitation isn't an option for traditional singaporeans.] if the number of years of being single is around 20 odd years.. aren't we supposed to treat ourselves better and treasure our years of singlehood and choose to be happy? having a spouse to spend the rest of our lives with will come. it's a matter of time.. at the meantime, please do treat yourself better... ok?

=wE Ought tO lEarn tO lOvE OursElvEs befOrE wE lEarN tO lOvE OthErs=

if anyone ever realised, i used to write depressing entries. about gOssips, school work, mutual friends, admirers and jerks.. perhaps this diary used to be where i pour out my complaints! haha.. now that i am considered happily attached.. i have him to listen to aLL my complaints without being judged by him.. wahaha.. many entries include him.. and i realise almost all my entries are happy.. or at least they sound happy to me. is it 'cos of HIM? yes.. definitely.. so many happy moments revolve around just the two of us.. and i have to admit he brought me lots of joy and surprises and i can't thank him enough for being such a sweet guy.. but due to our different personalities.. we have had several quarrels too.. ironically, i write happy moments into my diary.. while i have never posted any detailed content of our quarrels.. well, i almost did.. but decided to remove it straight after our problem was resolved.. perhaps 'cos quarrels are meant to be resolved.. while happy times are meant for us to reminisce! cheers.. =)

hmm one advice to people in a relationship... don't take things for granted. a guy is also human with emotions! yeah gotta treat him like a baby at times too.. lala.. *fainted* haha.. =p

darling, i love you and just YOU to bits.. =)

so what's the verdict?
1. be happy when single 'cos you'd never know when you have to give up your singlehood identity.. freedom would have to go with it.

2. a relationship requires mutual feelings.. and most of all, it ought to be treasured, truly madly deeply...!!!

i saw this on my pharmacology site but i don't really understand why pharmacology educate us with this.. but it makes me ponder for a while...

"even the happiest person on earth has his down days".

true isn't it?

3. learn to be happy, 'cos it's a choice.

peaceout~

PR

2005-06-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

exams is coming...

kinda stressed. a couple of days ago i called home.. dad encouraged me to study honors to apply for PR... he said if i have the ability to take honors.. he'd be most glad to fund me with my further studies... really happy to hear that la.. totally overjoyed =p bUT at the same time i am stressed too.. sigh.. i wanna further study doesn't necessary mean i can... so many people wanna take honors.. it isnt as easy as what i used to think afterall..

anyhow.. if ever i can study honors and apply for aust PR.. its for you, dad..

ok.. back to mugging... jiayou to everyone...

peaceout~

smaxe

2005-06-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

exams spelled the other way round.

hey diary.. hey everyone.. i am back.. but won't be updating often... exams is around the corner... *wah stressed*

tonight was our hall's farewell dinner.. glad i woke up in time for that. haha.. yup dinner was finaaaaly good for once...

next semester i will still be living under currie hall.. as from reliable sources, the units im taking next semester will be much much tougher than this semester... gEE.. that sounds really scary from the workload i have to face now... so thus, i am choosing an easier way out.. shant keep myself busy with housekeeping matters and most importantly... i DON't have to cook! wOOOO... haha...

most close friends know this already.. recently i spoiled a frying pan... haha... (who else have ever spoil one...)

but before you laugh.. read on....

that day, i finally placed Courage above anything else.. and tried to fry seafood omelete.. erm can't remember when was the last time i fry something.. haha.. anyway, the egg was overcooked with the inside (the seafood mix) still not totally done... but hey.. it was still edible... and it was my first try.. instead, i ought to be proud of myself that the kitchen wasn't burn down...

it was after i finished with the frying... i left the ladle ON the frying pan in the kitchen.. when i returned to the kitchen after a while.. i was shocked to find the ladle stuck onto the frying pan... the ladle melted onto the frying pan.. so cartoon isn't it.. ya.. so the ladle and the frying pan were stuck together.. inseparable till the end of time...

and then, a friend consoled me... isn't it ironic that a ladle which u use to fry food melts?? hadn't it defeat its purpose as a ladle?? haha.. they are not suppose to melt... rite...? conclusion is.. the ladle is lousy!

yea self-consolation does help at times... hahaha...

anyway, as far as i know, i don't have to touch a frying pan for the time being... *phEw.. 'cos there isn't one in the kitchen anymore!! wahahaha... *fainted* haha.. and of 'cos exams is in another 14days... KAOZ... i hate to countdown.. but that's an obligation.. to keep myself aware that time IS running out.. oh no...

this is my exam timetable...

15 JUNE - Biochem of the cell (theory)
16 JUNE - Genetics
18 JUNE - Biochem of the cell (prac)
23 JUNE - pharmacology
24 JUNE - Physiology

as i am gonna major in physiology and pharmacology... i shall tRy do well better in these two subjects... and btw... Biochemistry sucks. much worse than genetics.. at least genetics has lesser content to study! biochemistry looks easy from the outside.. but it's the bane of my life... haha.. sounds exaggerated.. but no! the notes are really complex! which makes me feel i am stupid.. bOO.. hopefully the examiners are lenient enough while setting the exam questions...

k peeps.. to those who are having exams.. all the best k.. keep the momentum on.. maintain a healthy lifestyle.. haha.. motivate one another to study... most importantly, dOn't lose hope.. ok? cheers..

to those who are working.. don't stress too.. be cool and think about the salary you are gonna receive on that particular day and smile~! haha..

as for me, it's time to mug... CUP.. and hopefully i don't get caffeine overdose... till my next entry.. all the best everyone... =)

peaceout...

wOO hOO

2005-05-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

yo...

sorry that i haven't been updating... been bugged down by tests and lab reports and stuff.. watched a couple of gOOd shows recently.. 'The Pacifier' and 'Guess Who'. met up with my jc fren sw on tuesday. she's studyin in curtin. both of us are here since Feb. but it amusing to SEE her here in australia.. i mean.. to see your fren from singapore is simply grEat! =) yup we had lots of catching up... had a fun time talking crap with her.. =p and it's nice to know how she's doing.. though she doesnt like the life here.. im glad at least she is persistant enough to finish one semester.. cheers.. but.. she looks much thinner (WHY am i growing sideways then???) and shorter? hahahaa..

tuesday was also oUR 5th month... on account that i didn't buy anything for darling during the past anniversaries (not like we are together for vEryyy longgg though...haha ).. i bought an england sweater which darling been eyeing eversince he saw the sweater... it was supposedly for our 6 month anniversary.. but i couldn't wait! haha =p the size didn't fit darling quite well though and there isnt any of his size left.. so we went to the shop in exchange for another jersey which he likes.. its a
usa rugby jersey. it's a little more ex. but as long as you like it... =) darling treated me to lunch @ Taka! and dinner! @ Billy Lee.. nICE! i like the dried mixed spicy horfun! yUUMmmm! and he bought me something while we were walking around shops to shops... a bracelet and a gorgeous top.. =p right darling? haha.. he knows what i mean... hehe..

it's enjoyable just to be with him.. we spent like 5hOUrs shopping around... it's the 1st time darling said he was tired. wahahaa.. =p

i suspect i bought a pair of roxy sunglasses on impluse! but its on sale. half price =p haha.. yup bought a pair of earings from Glitter Co. too. so cheap. only $5. the rest are spent on groceries like choco, sweets.. haha.. i'm dead.. i'm growing fat! nOOOOOOOO....

anyway, i searched online and managed to find something that look somewhat like the jersey i bought for dear.. and here it's :

the usa rugby jersey! isn't it cOOL?! =)

erm darling.. sorry for making you feel sad just now... all 'cos i didn't wanna make things worse. but glad everything is ok now..

happy 5 months... looking forward june.. next's july.. soon it will be december..! =) i love you.

OH nO! 24 days to exams.... i feel sooooo dead....

.yi qi jia you ba.

peaceout~

gOAL!!

2005-05-07T17:22:00.000+08:00

aHEm aHEeemm.. this entry is written by request..

went shopping on saturday(30.04) with the gals.. kookai bags are sOO nice! our 'fang tai' bought 2 sommore.. =p haha.. fortunately she doesn't read my blog.. wahaha..

darling scored a goal for me..! *waHhhhhh...* haha... yea it was during the inter-floor soccer match held on the 1st of may in currie hall... darling's team won 2nd! they got into the finals and they wore boxers to the court to play the finals... >_< haha it was definitely amusing and funnnny.. =p

the winning team won $40. darling's team won $20 and most of them donated it to charity.. i am so proud of you.. the opposing team mostly comprised of experienced players who belong to some league or school team lor.. darling's team fought hard.. it was an exciting game. i felt the adrenaline-rush occasionally too... darling chiong-ed for the ball as long as he was in the court la.. kinda rough leh.. he was very hyper throughout the whole tournament la.. kept shouting at his teammates who were in court.. asking who to pass the ball to who.. hehe.. during the game, he stood quite far from me.. so when he turned to ask me how much time was left.. his voice was so loud that everyone also turned to look at me for the time.. wahhhh.. so paiseh sia.. haha.. when he scored the the goal, he kissed the ring, as he claimed =p but darling's so mischievious..! not that he can't.. but he hugged me after the game..! >_<

haha but i still love you.. =)

010505.. bu yao wang le..

i have received mom's parcel... wahhh she spelled my english name wrongly la... >_< i saw 'stephanie (plus my chinese name)' on the outside of the parcel.. at least she wrote my chinese name.. or else.. i doubt the parcel will reach me man... *pHEw =p

050505 was fang ping's birthday.. happy birthday~~! =) the date is cOOL hey! hehe since i had a cute lil card which i brought over from sg.. i thought it'd suit her.. there were 1 giraffe and 3mice in the card.. well~ i thought i can be both the giraffe and mouse.. haha.. while the other 2mice are syerna and huishan.. wahaha.. =p she came to my door with doughnut just now.. it was gooood.. yummmm.. =)

yesterday had pharmaco test.. after that went back to sleeep till afternoon.. then went shopping in harbour town~~~ just the two of us.. =) we walked n walked AND wAlked... from 3.30 to 7.. my legs were really beat. but happy that we bought lots and lots of stuff.. =p had billy lee for dinner after that.. the hot plate doufu rocks! but kinda ex eh.. tea fusion's peach milktea's nice! lychee tea is nice too.. hehe then we watched the movie called [jing wu jia ting] starred by Twins! daniel wu! stephen fung! haha.. quiteee funny la.. but it's a kung-fu show.. not that i don't like the movie.. but i prefer romance-comedy.. anyway, it was a good show..

exams in 39 more days.... i am couting down... no more time already peeps!

i am still counting down. for us too.. =)

peaceout..

happy birthday to tiffany =)

2005-04-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

hEllo to ANYbody who's reading this.. i know my blog is remote and deserted and.. and .. dead.. haha.. =p yea i do appreciate anyone who drops by.. =) thank u!

well.. today.. i wanna write a summary ( or maybe more than a summary.. haha) on what i have been doing.. especially to elaborate on how i celebrated my BIG 21st birthday overseas.. this is the 2nd time i spent my bday in australia.. i thought if i haven't come to australia to study.. i'd be back home to celebrate this awesome day.. yes, things would have been different but i believe i would enjoy myself either ways! =) YUP now that i experienced it in perth, i have something to share! that i had a rEAlly wonderful, splendid, fantastic, memorable and SWEEEEEEEET birthday... it's filled with love.. joy.. surprises and more surprises.. =) felt really loved.. vEryyyyy *tOuched* and *HAPPY*!.. =)

it was friday... 22nd of april...

ruby baked a cake for me! it was a choco cake. it tasted great! she invited me to her Set on friday evening.. after failed attempts to smoke me that she had some pictures to show me, she relented to the truth--- that they wanted a bday celebration for me.. haha.. =p i went there.. had to wait for a few minutes at the door.. went to the ladies. when i stepped out of the tOilet.. the Set door was opened and liann, ruby and poom were singing the BDAY song to me.. so swwweeet! =) it was funny cos they never thought i would be in the toilet.. =p wahaha.. the girls, ruby, chany and liann got me a very cOOOOOl bath robe. it's BLUE, like the color of my blog. haha.. i know they cant find red bath robes.. but it's ok! i like it lots. i won't buy for myself something blue. but as long as it's a present from friends, i'll love the gifts to bits.. =) realllllllly.. 'cos it's the thought that counts.. isn't it? =) thanks you my girl friends! *hugs* n there's something else.. ruby stuffed up her 1st attempt to make the cake.. they hid the brown patch of 'stuff' from their 1st attempt in the microwave. they didn't want to let me see it! haha.. but chany was really funny. she didn't know the 'stuff' was in the microwave. then she wanted to heat up her food. so she opened the microwave.. she got a shocked for a moment, then she said," errr.. i think i don't wanna heat up my dinner already.. i like it cool.." haha.. i laughed out LOUD lor.. so lame~! =p haha =) thanks girls for the effort and time put in... on the cover of my bday card says somethings that's really funny.. haha i think i just keep within the four muscateers.. =p wahaha.. a BIG THANK YOU to you girls... =)

THANKYOU

it was saturday... 23rd of april...

then came the eve of my birthday, saturday... DEAR DISAPPEARED THE WHOLE DAY...
sounds sad eh? t was until night fall.. eddy called and told me dear had to help keith so he would be late to meet me.. nah i didn't fall for that.. haha. 'knock knock' on my door came at aroung 7.30pm.. it was dear! with a bouquet of
champagne roses... there were eleven roses in total.. he wanted to order 3.. then chany said he's too stingy. haha.. then he ordered 10. but the florist gave 11. haha.. hOw nicE.. dear ah.. when you see this don't kill me for suan-ing you k... wahahaha..! =p (continue with the story....) dear was in his suit. he looked so so so chArming! *fainted*... =p then we left currie hall to the mysterious place he wanted to bring me to.. mark and nicole drove us there. before i got into the car, i was requested by Dear to put on a blindfold... he told me about it earlier on.. *shrug* to not to overturn dear's plan, i agreed to it relunctantly... haha... i crawled cautiously to the back of the 2-door car and we were on our way to the mysterious place.... i tried to peek the surroundings at points of times while in the car.. of 'cos i did it oPenly.. i didn't unfold the blind. the blind just slided down by itself. haha.. then dear was shouting.. "DEAR! DUN PEEK lEHHhhh..." he sounded so desperate. haha.. wOO.. dear said sth like.. "i didn't expect the city to have traffic congestion at the hour". sOO.. naturally you'd think you were going to the city. rite?? BUT NO! dear smoked me... grrrr we wErEn'T in the city. he just wanted to smokee me that's all.. haha... we reached out destination in less than 10minutes.

i was led out of the car by dear.. then held him tIGhTly as he led me along step by step... EHHHHH... scaryyyyyy lehhh.... imagine you are blind... naturally will cLInG onto him when you walk lo... =p yeahhh.. now, the senario is me holding onto dear while he lead me to the so-called destination for our dinner.. then then... as we walked along the path i could hear the sound of sea waves.. i could feel the breeze too.. dear was on my right. and you know, when you are blindfolded, you tend to lean very close to the person you are clinging onto cos you're afraid. sooo... we were walking closer and closer to the right.. then dear kept saying... "can walk to your left? 'cos i'm about to fall into the waters.." >_< haha.. *pEnGz* lorr.... then he asked me to guess where we were. naturally, we would think it's somewhere in the city('cos dear smoked me..) near the sea.. so i thought we were near to Oyster Bar.. he led me to the GRASS patch on the left... and we came to a bench. i sat down. there... i was finally allowed to remove my blind.... haha..

i removed my blind.. and tada!

we were at... mAtiLdA baY! haha.. there was 3 dishes and rice on the table. a 'bai zan' chicken. oyster vege and prawn omelete.. dear personally cOOked the dishes! HOW rArE... well that was his first time preparing a 3-course meal for anyone.. =) thanks dear!! there was also plain water and champagne(non-alcoholic ). the surrounding was merely grass patches and the sea... =) i love the sea view especially.. hehe.. everywhere was dark. except for a kerosene lighted lamp on the table.. very nice and romantic.. =) fabulously sweeeeeet.

we sat down for our meal... that was when a minor hiccup occur.. dear didn't expect mosquitos to infest the place on the cold cold night... haha! yA LOR... that's why i couldn't wait to finish the food.. errr very obvious ah.. sorry.. reaaalllllly ALOT of mosquitos lahhh... =p but but the fOOd IS GOOD! i love the chicken that he made.. yummm... =) and i really really had a great time all because it's YOU*..

after the meal.. we decided to walk back to currie hall from matilda bay.. who knew it would rain.. haha.. so suayy rite.. gee.. then we found a shelter at a very high class country club in the university and just sat there to watch footie.. a while later we continued to walk back to currie hall lor... it was already 9 when we went back to his room.

i wanted to watch 'a walk to remember'. but dear said i especially shouldn't cry on my birthday.. then we decided to watch 'a walk to remember' before 12am(so it wasn't my birthday yET) and after 12am, we shall watch 'Along Came Polly'. but... the PIRATED CD which justin lend us wwa SOOO SOOO corrupted that dear's computer couldn't play 'a walk to remember'... booo.. so we watched 'Along Came Polly' instead. don't know why dear's computer kept hanging every 10mins.. it was making me wanna Zzzz... he was also quite bekcek too.. haha.. so he borrowed retz's laptop.. and so finaallly we could watch the show without any disrupt. =p OH yA.. dear bought bubble tea for me! so while we were watching the show.. we had bubble tea lo.. very nice hor.. =) ya.. so we watched the show.. it was 10pm.. it was 11pm.. then.. dear started to KEEP lOOKING at his dIgItal CLoCK.. he was literally HUGGING the clock lor... then will peep at the time every 10mins.. I AM NOT KIDDING.. rEALLY........ >_< hahahaa... so i kept disturbing him lorrr... haha..

11.45pm..... 11.50pm... 11.55pm.. we were still on the movie. dear still peeping at the clock. now once evey 2mins... hahaaha!

then the clock struck 12..

it was sunday... 24th of april...

dear said happy birthday! then he went to his door.. opened his door and MIRACULOUSLY.. he brought into a slice of mudcake from outside his door.. and sang a brithday song to me.. soooo sweeeeeeeeet laaaaahhhhhh... *fainted* haha.. =) i made a wish.. shhhh...

dear went to the door again and got for me a large container of Baskin Robbins(duno spell correctly or not) chocolate icecream! i had a few mouths.. then i felt so fat.. boo. haha.. then he went back to the door again.. and took a wrapped up present and passed to me... i opened it cautiously.. removed the wrapper and the styloform that covered the present.. it was a Precious Thots Boy and Girl sitting on a seesaw... they are in a round crystal glass.. yes!! it's a Precious Thots musical WATERball... if you shake the waterball.. flakes of glimmers and chips of heart shapes will fill the entire ball... it's so magical.. so beauuuuutiful.. yeah.. it's a musical box.. when you turn the knob many times.. a tune will play.. i mentioned that the boy and girl are on a seesaw right? each seated on one side of the seesaw.. as the melody plays.. the seesaw will rock from one side to the other side! so cute! but ahhh.. the boy's head is smaller than the girl's... why ah...? haha... =p but that's not the point. i like the gift aLoT aLoT... it's vEryyyy cute... other than the precious thots babies.. i like this little turtle that sits in the waterball looking at the baby couple.. so sweeeeeet.... *fainted liao*

thanks for everything you have done for me.... i appreciate it alot alot alot alot.. i will never forget how i spent my 21st birthday.. you made it so beautiful and unforgetable. i love you very much dArlinG... *huGs!* it was such a memorable night with you... thank you so much... *muacks*

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mY hEarT-fELt GrAtitudE anD lOvE tO yOu...

-thanks mom!!! thanks for transfering $$$ to my account.. hahaaha.. =p hehe.. *penGz... ya.. thank you mom for mailing my stuff over... reminds me that mother's day is around the corner.. hmm.. oh ya thanks to own brother, aka JAMES for wishing me happy birthday... know they won't be reading this.. but i know they miss me! haha.. ohhh i miss my bro.. i miss my mom.. =(

-thanks huiqin! who sms-ed me much much earlier.. she's the earliest of all.. thanks for the birthday greet.. but please don't forget, you still owe me one present.. wahahhaa..! =p see you soon to let you hug. haha. also wanna thanks shihuay for her sms! =)

-thanks again to ruby, chany, liann for the cake, bathrobe, card and this friendship! thanks for the effort put in to bake the cake.. you are the people whom i can confide to in australia.. you have been a great click of friends! some secrets will always be within us 4... shhhh... i promise =) haha.. cheers to our friendship... 4 muskateers... *HUGS*

-thanks khaiying and jiayi!! haha.. thanks for the sms-es and msges.. i know you miss me lahhhh... everytime im online.. you're like never online.. think you all are having your exams... all the best!! pass all your modules with flying colours..! don't miss me too much ok... haha.. thank you... may our friendship last 4ever. *hugs*

-thanks to miss leo for the parcel that you sent from singapore to australia.. thank you for the pastic bag which looked SO SO CHILDISH!!! hiyo.. you think the present was for 3yr-old kid ah... miss leo.. please we are all adults now.. haha.. wAhh! sound sooo old =x haha friend ah.. thanks for smoking me that you didn't receive my gift for you!!! grrrrr so bad.... and i can't believe i fell for it... >_< thanks for the necklace! thanks for trying to reach me on my birthday! you said you called twice to my room.. but i wasn't around... *huGS* miss you lotsssss... gee.

-thanks syerna! haha.. i kNOW you'd be reading this.. wahaha.. but don't know if you'd read until here... =p i got the e-card! eeeeeyer.. to your e-card.. i will always remember i'm the mOrE matured thinking oNE.. haha.. thank you for the necklace you gave me.. and the card that you made.. the nemo and dory too.. hiya.. don't thank me for helping you k.. 'cos you deserve it.. really =) we are BESTfriends aren't we? haha.. it's really sweeet of you.. ehhhh but where's my hUG? ok i know you arE shy now... haha shan't disturb u liao.. =p thank you! haha..

-thanks you my dear next door neighbour, candy. for her nice nice ***STAR***-shaped card! i am hanging the STAR on my door.. =) hehe again thanks to candy, jinhui, my dear ex-neighbour.. my floor mateS, grace and limin. and another friend, angeline. thanks for the jewellery box! its SOOO not-like me. 'cos its pink! DARK pink somemore.. haha.. but i like it lots! it's made my room look so sweeeeet-looking.. haha.. thank you all.. *HUGS ALL*

-thanks serene and retz for the margaret river dark chocolate! and thanks to dear's buddies who have helped to set up the table at matilda bay.. thanks eddy. keith. mark. nicole. jb. karen for the help..! thanks justin for the JaY chOu CD that you gave me.. haha

-my R1 friend, huiqi sms-ed me at 12am sharP.. thank you... although she doesn't know about this blog.. thank you very much... =) thanks for the fRiEndship.. you know i miss you!! haha.. *hugs*

-lastly... thanks to the special one. who has always been there for me for the past 4 months.. thanks for all the surprises and present!! it has been a wonderful birthday.. so much of it is because of you.. i love you lots lots and lots.. as much as i can give my heart to.. i'll give it to you.. that's how much i love you...

ooooh ya.. also on my birthday.. poom treated six of us to this thai restaurant aka Dusit Thai restaurant in northbrigde for dinner.. he ordered banquet for us! omg it was pretty expensive.. but the food is really good. i loveeee the tomyam prawn soup! the appetiser rocks! cos its kinda dimsum-like =p i like the desert too altho the portion is small la.. like kids-sized cake.. >_< haha.. but the others are really filling la... eat until 90% full... *bUrP* nice! before we left, we even learned how to say 'thank you' in thai to thank the staff.. hiyo.. so hard la.. haha.. next time if possible, i wanna go there again... hehe.

-thanks poom for the treat!

to everyone else whom i have foolishly missed your names out.. thanks... =) it's been a memorable 21st birthday... hip hip horaay! haha.. aussified.

i'm so blessed.. i have friends and a someone special whom i know i can depend on.. and share many moments with. i know i have TRUE friends and know who they are.. that i guess i'm very lucky.. and lastly, i'm deeply loved by and in love with an ex-helicopter paramedic... so.. what more can i ask for..?

"a heart-felt THANK YOU... to you... to him... to her... to everyone..."

noted, my longest entry ever... haha.. *salute to anyone who finishes this entry* =p

peaceout.

afterlife.. is there one....

2005-04-21T01:49:00.000+08:00

wOOO... just watched [ye man shi jie]! it made me tear like sH*t =p haha.... but it's SOOOO nice! *touched* *cried* and *smiled*... so sweet and fairytale-like.. though the ending is not a happy one.. i duno why hmm.. but i guess anyone who watches it will still feel glad for the girl at the part where she saw 'somebody' near the end of the show at the train station... veryyy nice show.. it made me cry so hard though... =x haha.. tsktsk anyWAy..... [ye man shi jie] is the prelude of [my sassy girl]... and i like both of the movies lotS.. laughed.. touched.. cried.. and of cos, smiled.. =)

nothing much la.. these few days have been spent on studying for my genetics test which's over!! cool.. after yesterday did i understand what genetics is about.. tsktsk.. at least i know i can pass la... with that i'm quite contented already..

hq has left for beijing today.. and before she went to the airport.. she wished me happy birthday first.. haha.. yea she's the FIRST... of cos la.. who can beat her?? it's still early la.. >_ < haha... thanks anyway.. that woman said she'll buy me a big present... i'm waiting hor... =p lala... hope she is having lots of fun there! looking forward to her visit in june too... =)

wooo.. my nocturnal life is backkkk.... been sleeping in the morning and staying up till dawn... duno to love/hate it.. tsktsk..

hmm regarding the previous entry.. i know i made youuu feel quite upset.. then we talked it out.. (though you kept saying you had nothing to say huh).. but at least you said something than to let things accumUlate.. not healthy ah... yea.. understand? most importantly, everything is back to tHaT period now and forever?... =p haha

dear just got his suit from home. retz's girlfriend who's here to visit has helped to bring it over from singapore.. seriously, darling looked sOOO suave! =) like a snag.. sO sOO charming... also duno wear until so nice for who to see... he's coming after me liao.. =p haha.. i'm kidding only dear..! wait ah. i have something to add! dear's sO sweet.. like always... the day before my genetics paper, he knew i was having difficulty understanding the pracs and everything.. he knew i was stressed. was feeling hopeless at points of times. then he went with retz and company to northbridge to takeaway duck noodles and bubble tea! that was my supper by the way... i was surprised and so so touched.. at first he asked me if i wanted instant noodles with him for supper... as usual i'd agree to it.. after he successfully tricked me into having instant noodles.. he went to northbridge without informing me.. then surprised me with nice food from Billy Lee... gee.. shhhsh.. i kept telling myself "dOn'T cry! dOn't cry.." and so.. i hugged him cos i badly wanted to.. and also.. i can avoid eye contact from you.. i'm so touched.. thank you and only you!! =)

before life, i must have been the wind, wandering freely. if i'm not by your side, feel the wind as it is me. when i die, i will become the wind again.. - [ye man shi jie]

<"wo3 qian2 shi4 bi4 shi4 feng1, chui1 lai2 chui1 qu4, zhi4 you2 zhi4 zai4. dang1 wo3 bu2 zai4 ni3 shen1 bian1 de2 shi2 hou4, ni2 gan3 jue2 dao4 feng1 jiu4 gan3 jue2 dao4 wo3. wo2 shi3 le4 zhi1 hou4, zai4 hua4 wei2 feng1..." >

so touching... *sobs.. haha..

peaceout..

disappointment

2005-04-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

i need a place to vent my disappointments...

duno la.. i'm disappointed with myself.. just got to know of my lab report one result today.. i got 7.9 while a friend scored 9... the average is 8.2.. yea i'm below the average cohort.. i know its just a few decimal marks away.. but so few people take pharmacology.. like 100?? and i'm below the 50th percentile.. it dawned on me how much effort did i put in?? how much better i could have done.. the highest mark is 9.9. the lowest is 0.8.. that bugger most likely didn't do his work properly.. but i thought i did... why isit like this... what have i been doing... i want my grades i got from last two semesters.. i feel frustrated with myself. the fact that i'm below the 50th percentile shock me. some people might think this's nothing.. nevermind it's just ME. ok???

fuck la. i have come to a conclusion.. if i continue to do what i have been doing.. i WILL remain below the 50th percentile.. i have been playing too much. i have been sleeping too much.. been lagging too much.. been skipping lectures too much.. fuck. i don't understand nothing from genetics lectures.. shit unit. stoned through aLL the lectures.. shucks. as much as i hate comparisons.. the highest mark was 9.9. so??? but i know i have yet to reach my potential.. i know i could have done better. now, wtf am i here for?? i have veered off track.. too much.. too far from my initial goals.. i felt i'm a failure over my inability to do well.. i don't want to disppoint myself anymore. i don't want to disappoint my parents..

sigh.. I DON'T WANT..

= let this fall be temporary, let the change be permanent =

erm to anyone who have read the crap i have written.. pardon me for the profanity used.. pardon me for the lack of propriety... my earnest apologies.. i felt really ________ (any word u tink fits). i'm pissed with no one but myself. again, i'm sorry ya...

dear has gone out for supper.. i didn't wanna go. i thought it was because i wanted to study for my genetics. now i know what's with me.. they thought of going to buswood. nah count me out. you know i love to play mahjong lots.. but dear doesn't like me to play too often.. rayner just asked me through msn if i wanna play mahjong.. i said i'm not free.. i didn't even give a second thought. i have sorted out what i really want with myself- i waNt my Distinctions!! that's what i'm in overseas for...

and don't worry about me.. i have always been able to get over things and move on.. yup.. like what's said in my previous entry.. i do feel sad.. i can't help it.. but lesson's learned.. that's the consequence i have to pay for slacking..

surprisingly, the results of this lab report have such a strong impact on me.. now i know why i have been stoning and sleeping since after i know my results.. it's like a deafening bell that woke me up from my stuphor state. i have awaken.. it's time.. it's time..

ps: dear, when you read this.. i hope you'd understand.. i love u *hugs*

peaceout...

(added)

you called, and sang tHat song that was dedicated to me through the microphone.. i'm supposed to feel touched. for a moment, i did.. but to let me know you're in ktv now doesn't seem to help.. nevermind, you didn't know.

shifted to the light

2005-04-14T02:44:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep again.. just had supper which dear bought from northbridge.. haha.. terrible me.. growing fat with him... -_-ll this must come to an end! haha... =p

errr... been missing beauty sleep recently.. staying up late and sleeping in the evening.. all thanks to test and lab reports... gee but if u ask me.. i haven't been studying seriously! booo... it's time.. yeshhh it's time to wake up tiffany!!! genetics test coming up next wednesday... it's my mOSt hated subject... oh no...

i rang qj up the other day to ask if she received my simple gift for her... i was surprised to know she didn't! at first i thought she was only trying to tease me... =( then did i realise i wrote the door unit the other way...!! wth... i even double checked her address with our cckss personal record of everyone in band.. never did i expect the record had typo error too... instead of 04, it was 40.. haha.. to think of it.. i did the Band record that year... OOOOOPS! =x i knew i can't be a secretary.. in future, i ought to be a managing director instead of a secretary~ haha.. *fainted.. hmm i'm praying that the mail can be sent back to me.. then can i repost to our prospective SIA hostess.. =p haha.. geeeeZz.. miss her much....

hq wants to visit me in late june! woooooo.... she's so funny.. first thing on her priority list is to be able to see APPLE treess... what's sooo special about apple trees??? we have lemon trees in currie hall~ haha... but i really look forward to her visit! =) come! and stay with me~ and cook for me too.. wahahaha.. =p hopefully she can learn to drive.. then we can traveeeeel around WA... i dON't wanna drive illegally hey... that's dangerous... haha!

just now we were talking in ruby's Set about scary movies.. like which movie has the best effect to freak people out.. we came to a consensus agreement that The Eye is the bestest horror movie... erm.. i can't comment alot on horror movies.. 'cos i find it stupid to pay for a horror movie just to freak myself out at night... i watched The Eye unwillingly.. bro bought the VCD home once and i was dRagged to the living room to accompany him... to people who wants to know.. it's a really good movie.. just the mere thought of that movie makes my spine chill... boo.. ok. it's scary.. i have admit.. =p and the fact that it's 3.20 now doesn't help! =( booo... blehhhhh... dear's still watching soccer now.. oooh so scary.. the scene in the hospital... the woman carrying the child outside the sausage stall... shucks! ok. i shall focus on genetics... g---e---n--e--t--i--c--s....

maybe i should read my storybook.. the first ever storybook i have ever read after secondary3/4? candy recommended it to me.. it's called "the five people you meet in heaven".. when i first read the begining.. i kept my hopes high but it didn't appeal to me.. it was like any other normal book.. it was till this part, the part where the leading character, eddy, died and went to heaven.. it was when he met the first person in heaven.. then the second person and more to come.. every person he meets enlights him on something he had done when he was still alive.. like why he had to live half his life as a cripple.. part of the story goes somthing like..

the 2nd person he met in heaven was his captain in army... the last time eddy went to war was also the time he leg was shot by a bullet.. who shot the bullet? it was his captain... the captain sacificed his life to save eddy who had to give up his leg in order to keep his life.. when eddy was still alive.. he had thought the enemies shot him.. ever since after the war... he lamented that the war destroyed his life. he hated his life. very much indeed... he didn't know how his captain died. his captain had always promised his men that he'd not leave anyone behind during a war... but it was until eddy saw captain in heaven did he realise that captain died for him... that was also when he came to realisation that what he had lost was nothing compared to his captain..

i have learn from this chapter that we shouldn't take things for granted.. i'm grateful for alot of things.. things that many people do not have... like to have the chance to come overseas to study... life isn't about brooding over our failure... instead we ought to learn from our mistakes, move on and get over with our failure.. 'cos life is about treasuring what we have nOw and appreciating the goods of life.. erm it's not that we can't have goals or be ambitious.. we defintely have to have goals in life... there are things which we can't manipulate.. sometimes no matter how hard we work.. we only get 60 marks.. i'll feel really sad when i do badly for a paper.. yes i do feel sad. but let that be temporary. we have to move on.. it's hOw we learn to be contented with things we caN't control? like when a storm comes, it's God's plan.. move on and learn that after the rain, there will be rainbow... learn that there's ups and downs in life.. and these ups and downs are something really good for us 'cos that's how our strength (physically and mentally) is build. yes.. hardships makes us a tougher person... cheers.. =)

peaceout~

sleepy not

2005-04-06T03:38:00.000+08:00

wahhh.. it's 3.38am in the morning. but i can't sleep.. i can't sleep! and i realise my blog is starting to rot.. gee.. can't bear to throw it away... so here im again to clear the cobwebs.....

starting from last week on the 25th of mar.... it was good friday followed by 1 week of easter break.... i thought i was supposed to study.. but well.. temptations swayed me upside down... bad bad bad... =p

the holidays was fun! splendid.. =) went to margaret river again.. but this time with friends.. it's a total different experience. we rented 2cars.. 2 mitsubishi lancer to be precise.. coooool man.. thanks to eddy and candy who did the driving.. it was a long drive eh... heh.. we went on good friday.. sadly all except the chocolate factory were closed... wah it was kinda wasted trip man... the jewel cave was opened. so thank god at least they did have a good time in the cave. =) i had a great time manoevring with the car while they were caving... haha.. dear chose to accompany me to the car.. and i drove the car for about 1hr. wOOO! im proud to say he's my 1st passenger.. haha! although well... i guess he was pretty worried at points of time eh? =p haha.. anyhow, besides the driving part... we took lots of pictures too... i like the ones we took at the lighthouse especially.. =) despite the fact that most factories were closed, it was a fun experience.. cheers =)

saturday was spent with dear in the city...

on sunday, we went to aquarium with the same gang.. candy n eddy must had been really tired having to drive long hours throughout the days... thanks to them man.. the aqarium is called Aqwa.. gee syerna lives there.. i mean she lives nEar there.. haha! =p erm anyway.. i saw my favorite fish! nemo.. dory.. squirt.. it's only until now do i know seahorses are cute too! haha.. yeshhh they are such beautiful creatures. i love seahorses! not to forget jelly fish.. oh so gentle from their appearance.. but definitely not to be played with eh? haha.. adorable.. the guys took pictures with the gray shark.. it was sO sO huge.. eeyer.. =x the dragonfish (or sth lidat) was the coolest fish i've ever seen.. it reli does look lik a dragon...! sadly the pictures dear took were not clear 'cos 'flash' on cameras wasn't permitted.. anyhow, the trip was fruitful and really fun! possibly 'cos of the company i was with... =) whee~

during the easter break did lots of shopping and eating.. and sleeping.. movies.. what else? anything but studying... booo... =(

watched miss congeniality2 and hitch! hitch's a greaaaat movie... i tink will smith isnt handsome.. but he's definitely a charmer. he's always sooo funny.

miss congeniality2 isn't as good as its 1st sequel.. maybe 'cos i had a high expectation of the movie? i have no idea.. part one's the best!

this is for you darling:

[dear.. you have done soo soo much for me... gee.. so much that i have no idea where to start... ok.. you'd rather accompany me for lunch during my breaks than to take a nap even when you were tired... you cooked breakfast for me! i won't forget the day you sent me to lecture.. den RAN back to hall to cook the nuggets within that 45mins.. den RAN back to my lecture theatre to wait for me to be dismissed from class... u were panting like crazy but ur tired face still flashed a contented smile.. aww did i mention you looked so cute.. haha. dear ah.. ur so sweet... *hugs tight* then you'd spend time with me.. your so-called 'quality time'... whenever i'm 'free', you'd come and look for me.. when i were still sleeping like a pig, you'd pack dinner for me that's if the food's nice.. if not, you'd cook udon with fried eggs for me... when i have cravings for bubble tea you'd buy them for me... you'd hold my hand tight when we were in northbridge.. you're my ATM though i dun use ur machine frequently.. =p other than a BIG 'THANK YOU!'.. i duno what else i can say to thank you... i know that you know i love you.. but i need you to know something too.. that i have been a VERY happy girl 'cos of YOU.. everything was so beautiful with you around.. (err even the times when you gone case and try to be funny la... haha.. *hugs!* ) do know that you're my dearest darling.... and that i love you lotsssss....]

from hitch... "Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away"

*a smile from you is all it takes to take my breath away... =) i love you darling..

to everyone out there... if you're having a bad time now... remember that before there is rainbow... there's storm... after the storm is over... everything will be fine again... =) do not take things too hard... always look on the bright side of life... that's life isn't it?

missing my dear friends in singapore... =) tkcare... do miss me at times k? if there's anything... email me or something k...

peaceout~

17march... =)

2005-03-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

as suggested by ahem ahem.. i should type an entry... =p

so tired man... yesterday slept at 5plus am! gEEz... was out with dear, retz, mark and nicole. retz drove.. the appearance of e 2-door car isnt appealing (though it's my fav colour!haha!) but the inside of the car is way too cooooool! it has neon light at the driver seat. the sound stereo is dAMn powerful! goshhhh.. =p we had dinner at mr samurai. it's nice and cheap and really filling... *burp. dear love the place very much.. hehe. we went to catch a movie called 'Be Cool'.. ohhh tell me about it. it's so funny! i give it 4stars **** i like one character.. the super funny negro. but he's super sex-starved. haha.. he scenes never fail to make me laugh.. it's a must watch peeps! had supper at Fast Eddy's after the movie. dear ordered the Delux seafood platter to share. the serving is SO big.. geeZ though i ate mostly vege that came with the platter, but i feel that im growing FAT!! shucks.. =( on our way back to hostel, retz took the Kings Park route.. you will be able to see the city and it's outskirt from the top of the hill! wOO.. we were blasting 'mei fei she wu' english techno music with the windows wind down. so cool man..

17march was our 3rd month anniv. he says it as 1/4 yr.. make it sound so short rite.. but den again.. yea.. 3months is really kinda short.. hehe but these three months has been like a beautiful paint despite several squabbles.. every being is bound to have different opinions and personality. on one hand, arguments is the major cause of breakups. that's when couples can't accomodate each other's flaws and character. on the other hand, to look at the bright side, misunderstandings allow us to know each other better, enable us to accomodate each other's differences and make our bond stronger. isn't it? i'm very sorry to have hurt you most of the times.. do you know how important you are to me...? you said you'll never leave me.. do trust me when i say i won't leave you too... =)

anyhows, to celebrate our 3months, he surprised me with an esprit bag. the one i set my eyes upon when we were in harbourtown the other day. i didnt buy it 'cos i had already spent $50 plus... much earlier on, before the 17th of march, he cooked his speciality dish aka seafood omelette for our dinner! it was really goooood, minus the oil of 'cos.. haha... dear if you see this, dun make US grow fatter la.. haha.. but i like your cooking lotS!! =p he doesn't like strawberries. but on the 17th march, he bought me strawberries 'cos i love them.. i knew sth was up his sleeve at 12midnight.. but i never thought it'd be flowers.. yes.. 3stalks of pink gerberas at my door at the struck of 12midnight. so sweet that i'm gonna have diabetes soon!! *hugs* may we have many many more 3months to go... =)

woke up at 2plus today... geee.. =p lunch was good. dear packed lunch for me... he took 2plates and packed the GOOD parts of each dish for me! the chicken thigh, lamb chop and corn. while he finished what was left in the two dishes.. mainly hot dogs and potato which i'd never had any liking for.. dun you think he's soooooo sweet... goshhh.. diabetes liao! haha..

"If you live to be 100 hundred years old, i want to live to b 100 years old minus a day, so i never have to live without you."

sweet...

2005-03-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

hey wats up peeps?? school has started. life is busy... labs labs and labs.. 9am lectures.. time for friends. for him. for work.. i just gotta TRY to manage things well.. blogspot has some problem.. sometimes when i wanted to blog, i just couldn't sign in.. gee.. so wont have chance to update often.. but just to let anyone who reads this.. life is good.. =)

happy belated bday bro!

lucks to peeps who is having exams now... all the best.. jiayou! god bless... gotta start to buck up now.. i need motivationnnnnS.... =p

dear gave me a really sweet surprise today... thank you so much... hehe =)

for the special one person...

I wish I could say I'm perfect
But I would be out of my mind
I wish I could say I'm perfect
Just cause I'm rare and hard to find
I wish I could give you all you* need
But I can only promise you*
I wish I could say you*'ll never hurt
Just cos I'll never intentionally hurt you*
I wish it could be forever we'll stay
But I know in my heart we can make it
I wish I could see that you*'ll never leave
Just cos my heart knows you* won't break it

dear, if u see this.. just wanna let u noe.. i love u! u are sooo sweet... =) love ya lotS.. *HUGS*

21st bdays

2005-02-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

havent been updating my life often.. much has happened. haha.. mostly happy memories and here they are... =)

-wee ter getting married. hehe..
-xl bday.. sorry that i din go..
-sh bday.. bbq!
-jy bday.. dinner with e usual girls..
happy 21st bday to u all~~~

21st bdays are meant to be meaningful.. it's a new begining to life. it's e day we feel FREEDOM within us. it's e day when we shoulder more responsiblities for our actions. it's e day we learn to discipline ourselves MORE. it's also e start to adulthood! oh no! i dowan... i hope i can stay 18 alwaz... having allowed to watch RA doesnt mean anything to me.. haha.. =p awww hw much do i look forward to it? gee... some sadness and some happiness within me.. although i ll b spending it in australia... someone special will be there with me.. rite? yeah i really hope so... =) i hope mine will be memorable.. and filled with much joy.. haha.. similarly, to my dear gal frenz... i hope u all had a happy and most memorable bday~~ k?? may all wishes come true..

last year i managed to see shooting stars on my bday.. how miraculous.. how unbelievable.. but yes, i saw it! wOO... will there be another heaven-sent bday? i wish. i hope. i dream too..

went to JP today. went with dear to do some shopping for new year clothes.. bought a blouse and a skirt from Bega.. nicenice.. also bought some makeup kit while dear bought some of his stuff too.. ahem.. haha! *shhhhhh..*
saw a very cute seed in one of e stores. u need to water it frequently so that when it grows.. u'll be able to see words on the plant! words like.. 'i miss u' etc... wooo.. fascinating huh.. but it looked a little fake. it's real i guess?

i still got lots of things to buy... oh shucks.

oh gee.. i feel so so broke... i desperately need a new........ handphone! woo.. soon.. there goes all the red pkt money... hahaha yeah!

today is my cousin wj bday too... happy 19 bday.. =)

*makes a wish.. for him. for her. for u. for everyone..*
peace.

my resolution

2005-01-08T02:42:00.000+08:00

resolutions are made so that we have goals.. rgt?.. this is no exception for me.. hmm.. but i find it really hard to fulfil them.. my past experiences tell me so.... so.... now i'm gonna tryyyyy to make as few resolutions as possible.. haha... then i don't have to be to hard on myself. wahaha! =p here it goes.....

1) [try to finish all tutorials.. ] i hate tutes! this semester is gonna be a tough year...year2.. 3bio subjects and 1chem! all sciences... boo... and i heard genetics is not easy. and so many labs... gdluck to me...

2) [keep my aust friends accompanied] share our woes and joy! lots of nice memories even though its been only 1year.. =) i miss the times where we watched movies together.. shared our secrets.. or merely just tok cock. =p haha..

3) [keep in contact w my friends in sg.] my bestfren. sec sch frenz. jc close frenz. some pri sch frenz too... not to forget my dear cousins whom i treat lik frenz too! and netfren whom i believe is my true fren too. =) cheers.

4) [learn to love dear more each day =)] one who's always there.. one who brings me much joy and laughter. one who has done so much for me.. oh and also one who's willing to let me torture! haha..! *pengz. hmm.. now that you are walking w me.. i'll treasure you.. =) thanks darling..

5) [more precious sleep when school reopens..] have to be more organised in my work.. then can i find enough time to sleep!! 8am lectures suck. luckily mine starts at 9am everyday. but still early... haha.. lazy lazy me... hor? haha..

6) [call my mom at least once in 2weeks] to disturb my elder bro. check how my younger bro is doing.. =p

7) [reduce 3kg!] eat less eat healthy! and.. exercise?.... =x gained 3kg since i went aust(altho when i last weigh myself.. i was lighter. lik back to before) but i still feel different! musn't eat so much chocolate.. i am fat i am fat i am fat.. hahaha...

that's all.. wah.. 7 resolutions in total... so many... gee.. result wise.. i hope i can.... get Distinction for all e subj tt's all.. i am eaSilY contented.. hahahaha.. *penGz!!

k.. shall see how difficult the subjects are b4 i make my aims.. yup.. for now i am going to sleep.. seldom will i have the chance to come online.. today is one of the rare days...

-the asia tsunami has made 2004 a sad year.. hope 2005 wld be a better year.. we can't change the past.. but we can shape the future. right? =) lucks to all in your studies.. happy new year.. =)

shall update again.. woo.. nite.

peaceout~

xmas

2004-12-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

been a hundred yrs since my last update. sorry!! 'cos no internet at home... now at friend's place.. so 1st of all... merry xmas! although a bit late... geez

i have no idea how to type an entry anymore.. oooops.. cant remember what i had been doing the past days.... but xmas had been fun! yup... =)

hiya.... so late already.. shall update more next time..

cheers.

cya.

peaceout

the return

2004-12-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

im back ohhh im back. whee~ haha....

nothing much since my return... or maybe some..? =)

1st day of my return, had bak ku teh! haha.. not bad not bad. then at night bro bought KFC... =x Eeeeeeee... australia has it too. but nvm haha.. i lost chess to my 10yr old brother for the 1st time! *blushes* oooops.. he's GOOD.. he won 2nd in chess competition! wOOhoO

2nd day of my return, mom cooked for us. whee.... very nice feeling to help out with cooking.. i cut garlic. bro gave suggestions on how our the egg should be cooked. add butter! special eh? milk too?!! haha.. turned out to be niceeee.. mom gave me opportunities to stir the vege. fun! whee.. eating together is a nice feeling =) mom cooked chicken soup that night.. by night.. my mood was turned the other way round. no one was at home. so i spent my night at home alone... insomnia~

ya.. for the rest of my stay.. im gonna learn to cook some simple dishes.. testing out my cutlery skills every other days when no one's aroud haha.. at least no one will be tortured to eat the food but me! =p

been to few places.. orchard.. watch movie, 'taxi' and window shopping! haha... =) and we were spotted by 2 aussie frenz and 2 of my sg frenz.. how coincidental.. whee.. im gonna buy clothes when i get $$$.. yeshhhh..... had facial the other day. $60 just flew away~~ and the facial process hurts... *pains* as ruby says, beauty doesnt come without a price. how true. haven't been playing mahjong! haven't been out with my shopping mate! haven't been to any gatherings yet..... whee.. life is good.. looking forward to everything.. nice. =)

peaceout everyone... christmas is around the corner... cheers!

wishing for you. yes u...

cant wait

2004-11-15T14:04:00.000+08:00

it's examination period now.. but for most people they have finished their papers and some have even gone back to Sg. whao.. i thought having long breaks between papers are constructive but it turns out otherwise. haha.. i am slacking away now.. hoooo..

yesterday went out for a cheap and fantastic dinner with the usual peeps.. we had roasted ducks! hah i miss that heaps.. but because i have to keep a budget on my spending, so didn't eat much. oh wells.. shall see how much dad is gonna sponsor me next sem... or maybe i won't be coming back to UWA? who knows rgt?

cant wait to finish my final paper... then off we go whale watching. next stop in Sg for jay's concert. cant wait cant wait! =) but first gotta mug.... and pack lugguage.... *ra

from weariness to alertness

2004-10-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

please give me some strength to go through what i'm going through now.. please..

people say what we experience makes us grow and learn from our fall... hope this saying is gonna keep me going..

kinda got easily affected by whatever is going on around me... say it's stress? maybe.. but it's really unfair to treat people badly just because you are stress? 'cos everyone is practically going through the same thing! so... *bReathe in*...... need to say sorry to aaron tomorow for ignoring him on msn.. sigh.. 'cos i really wasn't feeling alright and he was talking about macro paper coming in 2 weeks time.. and jason.. borrowed his notes from him.. and when i told him i might not be going for tomorrow's lecture, he asked me to go to his place to return him and that was 12.30 in the morning, i was so pissed i replied "fine".. sigh.. although he lives next block down, being stressed doesnt give me the rights to give stupid attitude problem. wake up tiff!

haha rayner made me laugh today though.. hee.. he was thinking of waysss to wake me up.. 'cos i sleep like a log! and his so-called best idea was for me to tie a long string to my toe and if someone needs to look for me, s/he can pull that string from outside my room and hopefully i will wakeup!.......... 0_0 haha.. i AM a log! undisputed haha.. =p

my floor's food keeps getting stolen.. terribleeeee... my cadbury choco and crabstick! we sort of know who the thief is... stupid american girl with an iRRitating voice keeps coming up to our pantry and looking at the fridge! so.. we have to lock the pantry's door at all times now..

hmmmm exams is around the corner, lucks to all..

god bless all..

yikessssssssssss ... u know what?? i just saw 4 veryyyyyyyyyy veryyyyyyyyy small worms hanging on the air!!! initially i only saw 2... then i used tissue to kill them.. btw they were hanging freely mid way in the air!!!! they are just 1cm long???? and they wriggle! when they land on the tissue they wriggle. so if i walk pass them they will attach themselves to me.. what the fuck!! i took baygon to spray my entire rooooom.. so gross!! i am gonna keep one in a container and show my floormates!! and everyone!! no wonder jinhui, my beloved neighbour (as she calls herself) told me its very smokey outside.. i wonder was it because someone sprayed insecticides to kill those worms!! *SHUT windows!!

*meditate tonight.. not gonna sleep... yikess.. =(

peaceout~~

voice within

2004-10-20T17:27:00.000+08:00

i heard your voice.
your unconcerned tone.
you didn't know what was wrong.
the voice within keeps haunting me.
how much i wanna give it all up.
how your insensitiveness greatly disappoints me.
you just didn't know.

i don't wanna lose grip...

-- don't wanna think anymore. --don't wanna say anymore.

dEEp thOts

2004-10-16T11:20:00.000+08:00

cuteeeee! chany's dog, twinkle.. is gonna FLY to sg with us.. haha... so cooL!

had some time to reminisce about the past.. what i have done.. and till now.. have i changed and learn to move on with life.. i must thank some people for being there for me and lift me up when i am down.. they are whom i called 'real friends'.. and my gratitude towards them is forever unmeasurable.. and that makes me realise who i should treasure.. cheers to our friendship.

through experience, that makes me realise who are just a bunch of hypocrites.. fuck off..

i should thank some who hurt me and make me learn from the painful experiences... through storms, we'll then appreciate fine weather.. and somehow we'll learn what precautions to take when another storm comes by...

few days ago.... i dreamt of a VERY scary aborigin trying to stalk and murder me and my mom... =( bOO... i was thinking how much i discriminate against malay boys in the past.. they were playful and childish...? and they never study.. and they never think about their future.. and they don't contribute to the society.. but think again... if malays are like that... what about the chinese? they say china people are stingy, cheaters, dirty and rough....?

i have been wrong in my judgement.. yes.. i used to dislike malays to a great extent... some of them are hopeless.. but i shouldnt come to a baseless conclusion that all are like that.. i shouldn't have looked at every malay and feel irritated... malays are nice people too.. like fauzan. hee.. he's a hell friendly and hardworking chap in UWA.. and there are a couple of malay scholars as well.. impressive.. =)

few friends i know are racists in some sense... ask me? i am not. i tend not to talk with some people whom i just don't feel like talking to? even for chinese? so how can i come to a conclusion that i am a racist? i have malay friends.. just not that many. but i can name a couple GOOD friends hehe and you know who u are.. =) afterall, chinese tend to have more common interest among one another? same for caucasians... try listening to what they are saying... you'll have a feeling that all of them are lazy to open their mouths to speak accurately.. but that's just our perception.. from a different culture and society... it isn't easy to understand one another.... as much as we try to be friendly.. we are still faced with a boundary... communication breakdown.. and that's very sad... people in currie hall are somewhat segregated into their own group.. if you become the oDD one and start to mingle with people purely of other races, people will think there's something wrong with you.. i have seen cases like that... and there are people who ask me to mix with the aussies.. not that i don't want to... imagine a group of caucasians and yOU.. they can be friendly but they still keep a distance from you? it's abit oFF isn't it... and what's more... sometimes our interests are different.. and i just don't feel like to? so what's the point when they feel the same way here? one of my friends does mix with the malays.. aussies.. japanese.. i come to conclude, she has more overseas friends than singaporeans.. then what's the point?? pointless. you see my point?

exams in 19 mOrE days... *stressssed*

lucks for your exams! =)

peaceout~~~~

concentration and a great deal of determination

2004-10-09T08:03:00.000+08:00

that will bring us far.... =)

exams is on my path... and it's time to put on my thinking cap and start burning midmight oil.. another 26days to exams.

i can feel the fear oppresses me. more and more as each day passes by. what is needed of us to do is to mug. there's a purpose to that.. to die earlier. haha.. 'cos so many brain cells are killed! but of 'cos.. the opportunity cost to mug is low when that concerns our future.. which is our "short run aggregate future" haha.. (all the macro stuff hahahaa.. pardon me 'cos macro is bugging me these days) .. for instance.. if we know we are gonna die early because we have to study and kill our brain cells.. we'd still do it! 'cos we know our near future depends on our grades.. so.. opportunity cost to mug is low relative to having good grades.. so mug!

im so stressed.. perhaps 'cos i set a high aim for myself.. =x geez.. i really wonder what's the purpose of having good results in uni when all it matters is to pass all the units and get promoted to year 2.

but think again.. what you'll get from your parents and relatives will be.. "what's your grade for biology? what's your grade for maths?" and never.. "did you get a Pass in chemistry?" it's about doing better and improving on what we are doing gradually, or drastically if you like.. and when your result get lowered by one or two grade , your parents will start to ponder what you have been doing other than to mug without no decent life.. life sucks sometimes..

but surprisingly, i am enjoying while i study hahaha.. especially when reading stats and biology.. they are quite interesting after some time.. lucky me to have an inch of interest in these 2units...

on the other side.. i am all confused with macro.. geez.. it's sOOOO boring.. ZZZZzzzzzzz..... God help me.

concentration, determination, strength, hope and courage.. that's all i need.. =)

ciao~~ back to macro tutorial..

zooming in to details

2004-10-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

What the Modern Woman Wants
By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen
The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta convertible as it careened down the highway, clutching tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may be kidnapped by the wind. She was not used to such speed, with trembling hands she pulled the seatbelt tighter but was careful not to touch the patent leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show very clearly on white, Ma.'

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her sleek silver mobile phone using big words the old woman could barely understand. 'Finance' 'Liquidation' 'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on television. She was speaking in an American accent. The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval. 'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her daughter exclaimed agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her perfectly manicured fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in irritation. 'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she clicked the phone shut and hurled it angrily toward the backseat.

The mobile phone hit the old woman on the forehead and nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it up and handed it to her daughter. 'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence and switching to Mandarin. 'I have a big client in America. There have been a lot of problems.' The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big and important. Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view window, wondering what she was thinking. Her mother's wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially cheerful digital tune, which broke the awkward silence.

'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She remembered her daughter telling her, how an English name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones being easily forgotten. 'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to take the ancient relic to the temple for her weird daily prayer ritual.'

Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it was referring to her. Her daughter always assumed that her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss sticks!'

The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands gripping her plastic bag in defence. The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It looked almost garish next to the dull sheen of the ageing temple's roof. The old woman got out of the back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main hall. Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business suit and stilettos and reapplied her lipstick as she made her brisk way to her mother's side.

'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call to make,' she said, not bothering to hide her disgust at the pungent fumes of incense.

The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a joss stick, she knelt down solemnly and whispered her now familiar daily prayer to the Gods. Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter luck all these years. Everything I prayed for, you have given her. She has everything a young woman in this world could possibly want. She has a big house with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is too clumsy to sew or cook. Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a rich and handsome angmoh man. Her company is now the top financial firm and even men listen to what she says. She lives the perfect life.

You have given her everything except happiness. I ask that the gods be merciful to her even if she has lost her roots while reaping the harvest of success. What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides well for me. She is rude to me only because I affect her happiness. A young woman does not want to be hindered by her old mother. It is my fault. The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in her eyes. Finally, with her head bowed in reverence she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of smouldering ashes.She bowed once more.

The old woman had been praying for her daughter for thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a melon, she came to the temple and prayed that it was a son. Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her womb, bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband had kicked and punched her for producing a useless baby who could not work or carry the family name. Still, the woman returned to the temple with her new-born girl tied to her waist in a sarong and prayed that her daughter would grow up and have everything she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed that her daughter would never have to depend on a man.

She prayed every day that her daughter would be a great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated, could never become. A woman with nengkan; the ability to do anything she set her mind to. A woman who commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she opened her mouth to speak, precious pearls would fall out and men would listen. She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she watched her daughter grow up and drift away from her, speaking a language she scarcely understood. She watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to one who openly defied her, calling her laotu; old-fashioned.

She wanted her mother to be 'modern', a word so new there was no Chinese word for it. Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old woman wondered why she had prayed like that. The gods had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the wealth and success that poured forth so richly had buried the girl's roots and now she stood, faceless, with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors by only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values. Her wants were so ephemeral; that of a modern woman. Power, Wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques, and yet her daughter had not found true happiness. The old woman knew that you could find happiness with much less.

When her daughter left the earth everything she had would count for nothing. People would look to her legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she would be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the ashes of burnt paper convertibles and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all her big hopes and prayers for her daughter; now she had only one want: That her daughter be happy. She looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger and worry. Being at the top is not good, the woman thought, there is only one way to go from there - down. The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and spread out a packet of beehoon in front of the altar. Her daughter often mocked her for worshipping porcelain Gods.How could she pray to them so faithfully and expect pieces of ceramic to fly to her aid?

But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of wealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped every day of her life. Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshipped counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shell at the altar. The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had left a teetering grey stem that was on the danger of collapsing. Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in resignation, as she bowed to the east one final time to end her ritual.

Modern woman nowadays want so much that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot find it. Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder.

She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look of worry and frustration was etched on her daughter's face. An empty expression, as if she was ploughing through the soil of her wants looking for the one thing that would sow the seeds of happiness.

They climbed into the convertible in silence and her daughter drove along the highway, this time not as fast as she had done before.

'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put this. Mark and I have been talking about it and we plan to move out of the big house. The property market is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to pay seven million for it. We decided we'd prefer a cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a perfect one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment we plan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more space to ourselves ...'

The old woman nodded knowingly. Bee Choo swallowed hard.

'We'd get someone to come in to do the housework and we can eat out - but once the maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you. You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that, the apartment is rather small. There won't be space. We thought about it for a long time, and we decided the best thing for you is if you moved to a Home. There's one near Hougang - it's a Christian home, a very nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow.

'I've been there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's beautiful with gardens and lots of old people to keep you company! I hardly have time for you, you'd be happier there.' You'd be happier there, really.'

Her daughter repeated as if to affirm herself. This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food offerings to cling tightly to; she bit her lip and fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk deep into the leather seat, letting her shoulders sag, and her fingers trace the white seat.

'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view window for her mother. 'Is everything okay?'

What had to be done, had to be done.

'Yes,' she said firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you happy,' she added more quietly.

'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can move there tomorrow, I already got the maid to pack your things.'

Elaine said triumphantly, mentally ticking yet another item off her agenda. 'I knew everything would be fine.' Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated.

Perhaps getting rid of her mother would make her happier. She had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had everything a modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status, Career, Love, Power and now, Freedom, without her mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down ... Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she picked it up and read the message, still beaming from ear to ear.

'Stocks 10% increase!'

Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for her... And while searching for the meaning of life in the luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in the backseat became invisible, and she did not see the tears.

~~END~~

a wonderful piece of work.. well done man...

exams is coming... oh geez.. i can feel the stress coming head on to me.. wth... 2wks break passes by like the wind... and soon i'll be freed from aussie land.

cheated

2004-09-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

tell me if i should feel cheated..
your buddy tells u he broke up with his gf.. and after 3days they patched. he didn't inform u not even an sms. would u feel cheated? haha.. i feel like an idiot...

now, i just cant be bothered anymore. so fuck off.

100 years later.. haha!!

2004-09-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

a hell lot of stuff happened since my last update. sory for not updating frequently nowadays. been lazy and kinda having no mood to type a decent entry. or maybe just sleeping as much as playing..

hmm a friend said my entry is sad. another said it's boring.. haha.. sory k to bore u with my mundane life haha..

some significant events took place.
28-08-04
-went out to celebrate rayner's bday at matsuri.. although there were sOme awkard times between ahem and ahem, but well... it was quite fun. janice planned to give rayner a surprise but stupid rayner is too clever to hide something from him! but anyway, we sang birthday song in the restaurant. was enough to embarrass him! haha!
not to forget, 28-08 is also shuwen's bday. 29-08 is suhui's. =)

-been having serious diarrhea those few days.. and the doctor i consulted was so fierce! geez.. when i replied i was feeling kinda ok.. she asked why feeling not too bad still need to see her.. oh man..

-sick of mr david yong for a period of time....... blehz.

6-9-04
-was the day they went to celebrate daniel and debbie birthday at hog's breathe. i was told they wanted to celebrate for daniel until the day itself. He surely would be there with debbie.. so so so, to avoid awkardness, i'd rather not go and accompany ruby and help her out on her muffins.. yupz.. that day ruby was pretty sad 'cos her muffins didn't sell well.. but i think it wasn't that bad..

8-9-04
-had dinner with chany's parents who were here to visit their beloved daughter haha.. =p her mom is SO funny...... haha.. can see she and her mom are damn close... *envious

9-9-04
-was international night which rocked beeeg time haha.. i like the malay modern dance and the singapore skid. it was SOOO funny and crappy. haha.. i had fun taking photos for ruby! ha.. and i thought keith was cute when he danced haha.. oooooops!

-it's also meiqi's bday.. =)

11-9-04 (sept 11!)
-sUrpriSed gerald on his bday with wine and chips and pizzas.. wahahahaa.. fattening!! while watching some GaYisH show on channel7 -_-lll ruby still can understand the lousy content of that opeRa... wth... but THEY (not me) had a good time laughing.. i told them i get more stressed instead of getting detressed while watching gay men dressed in skirts dance and sing and 'play' with one another....... grOSS. 0_0 but i did have a good time laughing at aaron and his daily corny jokes.. haha! =p

-another sURprise for ailin for her birthday at rayner's house. we sang to her the moment she stepped into the living room.. yeah.. each of us lighted a sparkle and janice held the cake.. haha.. but we set off the firealarm 'cos of the smoke given out by a total of 12 lighted sparkles hahaha... terrible. =p
rayner cooked a hell lot of dishes for us. mUSsels!! yummm.. just abit too tough haha.. and spaghetti and fish.. carolyn baked the cake! choco cake! sOOO niCE ok!

-and mahjong was stressful but at the same time enjoyable. haha.. i won quite abit ^^

that's all folks!

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currently.........

recently my sleeping habits have been disrupted! i sleep in the afternoon.. and stay awake till school start in the morning.... oh no...

i think sOme particular person(s) think i like their bf.. wth. i am so maligned!! GEEeez.. oh man.. i have a calender which in a particular month shows a model who looks like a friend's bf, ps: that model and her bf are both not very goodlooking and obviously not my type!.... and when that friend knew about it, her attitude towards me changed like 180degrees man.. it was so irritating.. can't be bothered man...

i think i am having a crush on someone.. but still not too sure.. hmm .. until then haha... but having a relationship sucks mOst of the times.. the problems and emotional downs.. geez they really are the worst feeling ever ever... i have a friend having relationship problems now.. feel kinda worried and sad for her.. but don't worry, we will be there for you chany.. =) trust us k.. god bless..

this semester i am not doing very well in terms of studies.. sucks! abit too slack off already.. i am still contemplating whether or not to go ruby room later to watch movie later!! we chatted to 3am in the morning yesterday for god's sake.... oh man... time to study!!!!!!

and did i say.. i think my biology tutor has something against me! gave me such a lousy mark for my essay.. humphf... nothing is fair. right.

i will find my way

2004-09-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps for not updating for so long... hee.. been beri beri busy hahahhhah..

these few days i have been busy with tests and midsems and blahh.. all in all, although i didn't fail any of the papers.. but still, my grades SUCK! =( excluding macro econs 'cos i thought by passing that paper, i am counted lucky enough ahha.. yep. ^^

recently alot of things happened. kept myself awake at night.. sleeping late and going school early.. and coming back after that and sleep through lunch and dinner. and having supper after that.. and will see carolyn around in the pantry too hahaha... hmm that's bad for health i know.. but well, i just have to bear with that, 'cos i can't study in the afternoon.. geez...

shingo went back to japan.. gave him a small token and a note.. and he told me through msn that he cried on the plane.. haha.. wow.. he sort of treated me. ruby and mark to dim sum( i forked out $20 for e meal too). and yep kinda miss him sometimes when i don't see him around in the dining hall sheezh..

then i get to know chany and terry better.. hee. idiot terry raised his voice at me just now.. forgot for what already then chany scolded him haha. lalala~~~ had meal with chany's parents today as they are here to visit her.. her mom is damn fARnIe haha... and we had a delicious dinner... it was nothing compared to the sucky hall's food.. yeah!!

tomorrow is international night. i am not performing... but yeah ruby is! hoho!! cheers for her haha... and i shall be the camera crew... =p

hmmmm he still treats me as invisible. can't expect me to say hi to someone who takes me as a stranger right? so.. yep.. i am not trying to do what many people do- 'an eye for an eye'. but still i have my dignity to live with. i did nothing wrong.. i have the right to hold my head high and look at him without avoiding him and at the same time, just be myself. saw him today.. from afar.. i didn't bother to even look at him. 'cos i know i will receive the same reaction from him. wth. i don't care. his gf is a nice person.. i don't hate her. but whether or not she has anything against me.. i don't know.. i have a weird feeling whenever i see her. geez.. btw.. i don't have any feelings for him anymore.. i swear man. =)

few days back was regan's and daniel's birthday.. i had a great time playing with sparkles and enjoying the coLd night hhaha.. yepz

i have kinda nice neighbours around.. hehe we share food. and joy. the floor outing was fun although my batch only had me! but i got to know some of the peeps like jin hui grace and clem and nicole better.. yeah... and nicole know fairoz! my secondary school junior haha.. such a small world eh.. hee..

recently it has turn cold again... gross.. it's suppose to be spring now isn't it?!?! 0_0 so cold still... geez...

i have plans of moving out to stay.. i have to choice to either stay in hall.. or to live out with li ann.. i forgo the thought of living with 3 guys namely gerald, melvin and kenneth... 'cos that's just NOT possible... 'cos 3 guys 1 girl is crazy haha.. =p but really hmm they mostlly are nice guys.. hee... so vexed... 'cos i really have no idea if i should move out!! blEHz........ if i move out, what happens it my 3rd year when li ann's bro comes... then i have to find other housemate.. i will need a car too.. 'cos her house is quite far down from school... and maybe ruby and chany will miss me like mad.. hahahhha.. not to say someone else.. haha... jkjk... =p

recently been chatting with huiqin and jiayi online.. and shingo too! wahz... huiqin kept asking me if i miss her........ *roll eyes* hahaha... it's fun to chat with them man... can really destress......... hahahahahhha... shingo is online now telling me tokyo has many earthquakes and typhoon recently.. ohhh man.. that's scary... ooops reminds me that i haven't been calling home for quite some time since.... =x

is it possible to like someone who's already attached? answer is yes.
loving someone is to wish him to be happy.. you don't necessary have to be with him.. cheers.. =) and i am not into any relationship.. at least for now.. yeah cheers! =p

peace out~~

2004-08-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

NEXT WEEK, macro MIDSEM 30%, 2 bio TESTS.. I AM DEAD.. i won't be coming online this weekend.. bless me man.........

AIM
macro midesem- 21/30 - 25/30
bio online test- 100%
bio lab quiz- >6/8

2004-08-17T20:07:00.000+08:00

Anger Section:-

What do you do when you're mad?[scold!! to the verge of crying.. hee..]

If you can take back time, would you have never done this?[yep..]

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?[yep]

Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?[Yes.. haha my brother..]

Do you curse when you're mad?[ya.. the worse is the four letter word.]

Crying Section:-

When was the last time you really cried yourheart out?[er..... last week. was really moody..]

Ever cried yourself to sleep?[Yes.. 'cos i had school the next day.. so no choice gotto sleep.]

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?[yes.. was ruby hee.]

Ever cried over the opposite sex?[yes]

Do you cry when you get an injury?[when i sprained my ankle few months ago.. i almost cried out loud.... =s]

Do certain songs make you cry?[yes.. music is my life. some songs make me emotional]

Can you make yourself cry for no reason?[no.. no reason.. can't cry. haha]

Pain Section:-

What's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?[to face some people..]

What's the worst thing you've done to yourself?[treating myself badly.. being to nice to others.]

What's the worst thing you've done to somebodyelse?[lied!! i am a sinner..]

How depressed can you get?[to the point of thinking how i should end my life.. but of 'cos i won't do it. it's beyond sin.. hee..]

Do you inflict pain on yourself?[NO way!]

Happy Section:-

Are you normally a happy person?[NopE]

What can make you happy?[simple wishes coming true.. hee]

Do you wish you were happier?[yes man..]

What makes you the happiest?[to be showered with luv]

Is being happy overrated?[NO lor]

What about being with your friends, does thatmake you happy?[yes if i was with my true friends!!! hard to come by ok.. ^^]

Can music make you happy?[YESH..]

Love Section:-

Have you ever loved someone so much, thatyou'd die for them?[*THINK DEEP. hmmmm... yes.. =x]

Did you ever love a person, tell them that,and only got 'thanks' as a reply?[i won't dare to tell a person i love him... haha.. i am such a wimp.]

Ever loved someone so much, it hurt and madeyou cry?[ya.. so what's your problem??]

Has anyone besides your friends and familyever said 'i love you' to you?[Yes.. my ex lor.. but felt it was superficial.. puix.]

Hate Section:-

Who do you actually hate?[i hate bimbos. hypocrites. back stabbers.. etc ^^]

Ever made a hit list?[Nah.. not to that extent.]

Have you ever been on a hit list?[Maybe man.. you never know.]

Are you a mean bully?[i have been mean. but never a bully. except to my bro. whahahaha..]

Do you hate any one that breaks your heart?[for once. after that. nope not anymore. hee]

Do you hate George Bush?[no lah..]

SeLf_eStEem Section:-

Do you believe in yourself?[I believe in my own intuition. yep.]

When people say they think you are good looking do you deny you are?[I will disagree. haha.. you can ask anyone. 'cos i never agree!!]

Are you one of those that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?[No unless they are very irritating haha]

Ever wanted to kill yourself because youthought you weren't good enough?[er.. not to that extent.. but thought of not going out. hahaaa.. ]

no reason.

2004-08-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

I choose this path. that is to FORGET and LEAVE you.

i want to start anew.

will you stop haunting me...

the stars were finally coming back

2004-08-14T04:07:00.000+08:00

whao it's 4am in the morning now.. but i am so awake! thanks to the vienna drink i took just now... hehe..

today's tute and lecture was ok.. i was happy for syerna 'cos this was the first time she got 100% for HB test hee..

went out for dinner at liann's house.. so nice!! yummmmm..... ruby was the chief chef. haha.. i love it when i do not have to eat hall's food yeahhhh... we went Ti AMo for coffee and cakes after that. my treat hee. the macci chocolate cake ROCKS beeeg time manz. the white chocolate cheese cake was cheesy.. i mean really cheesy.. not the other kind of cheesy.. if you know what i mean.. haha... and you know what, the night sky was splendid... stars stars and more stars spreaded out, all over the deep blue sky....... made ma day much... =)

reached hall at 1am. and saw the peeps who went for river cruise coming back.. 'cos friday was friday the 13th.. the theme for the cruise was to wear something black and sCarY!! people dressed like....... er..... you know the killer you see in Scream?? and bat man and cat woman?? and transexuals for a night and faces with fearful cosmetic makeups... geezzzz........ =x

i just came back from the bath room.. and i saw 2people lying along the corridor at the other side.. most probably making out... but OUTSidE the room??? my goshhh. but fair enough they were fully clothed and most probably the girl was drunk or something.. i am so disapponted, 'cos it was seb!! with god knows who... suckssss... he was to me, a hunk, but now i am thinking otherwise.

peace out peeps.. i am gonna do my macro tutorial now! =p

affected

2004-08-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

maybe by jay's 'jie kou'... arghhhhhh

one word to describe what i feel now.. dead.

happy national day. i was at the stadium last year. man.. i hate where i am now. life suddenly turns so dark. how sudden. overnight when i woke up from yesterday's dream... i have no drive to study.. friends.. tell me which one is sincere...... only the music is with me. even one of my good friend here seem soooooo distant to me now...
confused.
puzzled.
helpless.
tears.
heartache.
it's a cycle...
i want to cry.
i feel like closing up again. and totally focus on my studies again. i was like that for a period of time after the breakup. i know i will do well for my exams that way... i hate to love again.
i hate myself for being me. like a piece of shit.

pRaYer.............. decided to give up on something.... decided to accept somethings and..... decided to sacrifice somethings.......

still.. i will remember you always.... i promise...

6things

2004-08-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

6 things that you're wearing right now?:
1. my fila sweater 2. jeans 3. flipflop 4. contactlens 5. key 6. earings

6 things you're going to do tomorrow:
1.go for tute 2. lectureeeee 3. sleep well in the afternoon. at night study 4.go online 5.find out what more about ruby's muffin's plan 6.can we go out for supper?hee.. =p

6 things you ate/drank in the last 24 hours:
1.toast 2. charkuayteow (which to me was tasteless) 3. hot choco 4. coffee with milo 5. egg white 6.yucky carrot soup... =x

6 things you did so far Today:
1.bio lab..puix 2.went to 3lectures 3. see doctor 4.went for lunch 5.ignored someone! 6. got pissed off at someone!

6 things you look for in a girl/boy:
1. height! 2.eyes 3.smile 4. lips 5. hair 6.gentleness (in that sequence!)

6 things that you love :
1. God 2. music! 3. friends 4.winter 5. stars 6.movies

infected

2004-08-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

i can feel you... trying hard to make me smile all the time...

yay yesterday i had chem lab and it was fun!! we wore lab coats so coooolx =p and ling, syerna and eddy were in my lab class. hehe.. so nice ^^ although i didn't manage to finish the lab questions.... 'cos it was sOOOO long.. but well.. the quality of the work matters more. yea.. ^^ my lab deomonstrator was gd too..

bio lab was gOOOD too!! syerna was in the same lab as me cOincidentally! and last week we saw... rat dissections video taped by my previous lab tutor. wOW.. so cooolx.. the intestines.. intestines and intestines.. woa..

so far... nothing much.. but i feel quite lonely sometimes.. grOss..

on saturday went for housewarming and lost in mahjong again.. we played at rayner's house till 6am!!!! but the steamboat was FUN!! we couldn't finish the food so we played zhong ji mi ma again.. =s i had to eat 3times!! wahlao.. and it rained while we were on our way back to hall... even worse.... so sunday did nothing much but slept through the day... hmmm... i feel so dead. so moody. so sad. so down. so abandoned. ooooh no..... sigh.

still have got all the subjects to revise.. i am so behind everyone!! still i got to go for meals.. or else......

and people, i am sick..... =(

puppy love ^^

2004-07-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

i am feeling kinda screwed now... couldn't do the online maths questions. argh. didn't revise much today.. guilt-stricken.

chany's dog visit our hall today hehe.. her bf brought it here.. but it was so hyper!! omg.. reminds me of yi wen's dog! it loves to lick people.. so in the end.. i hide on ruby's bed haha!! that puppy couldn't reach me.. it tasted my fingers when i touched its head which was full of saliva too. grossss.... i had experience of being chased by a puppy bULLdOg. and 'harrassed' by a puppy which wanted to lick my toes! so.. i have a phobia against dogs that lick toes.. yucks... hahaaa... i am hopeless heheheee... =p ruby was enjoying getting 'kissed' and licked by her though hahahaaa.. it was licking her face and well anywhere possible... lolx.

ciao peeps.. i am going to bed now! so early only.. but i am tired..

double survey...

2004-07-28T15:39:00.000+08:00

1. Sleep with or without clothes on?Ans: with
2. Prefer black or blue pens?Ans: black. yep.
3. Dress up on Halloween?Ans: nah..
4. Like to travel?Ans: sure~ if i am rich, i won't even bother to study.. should spend my life travelling around the world and widening my knowledge scope that way~
5. Like someone?Ans: nah.. i am refraining from falling for anyone.. dont wanna get hurt anymore~
6. Does he/she know?Ans: N/A
7. Sleep on your side?Ans: ya
8. Think you're attractive?Ans: nah.. i am not pretty, i am fat, stupid and idiotic.
9. Want to marry?Ans: maybe yes
10. Who?Ans: that depends on who wants to marry me~
11. Are you a good student?Ans: since this year... yes.. a very good student indeed indeed haha!
12. Are you currently in a relationship?Ans: no. and i do not want any.
13. Are you involved in sports?Ans: a soon-to-be gym member. counted? =p
14. Birthplace?Ans: Singapore
15. Christmas or Halloween?Ans: Christmas!! muacks!
16.Colored or black-and-white photo?Ans: depends on who is in the photo.. if it's me. black n white please haha..
17. Do long distance relationships work?Ans: it will, through hardship.
18. Do you believe in astrology?Ans: not really
19. Do you believe in God?Ans: yes i do
20. Do you believe in love at first sight?Ans: infatuation at first sight maybe.. but not love.
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party?Ans: no no no
22. Do you drink?Ans: a sip or 2. hee
23. Do you have a car?Ans: no. i want 1!!
24. Do you have a job?Ans: no. no one wants me. and i dont like to work haha
25. Do you make fun of people?Ans: if and only if i am close to them!
26. Do you think dreams eventually come true?Ans: sometimes.. sometimes just have to depend on fate. and chances.
27. Fave thing to do?Ans: music as my life.
28. Fave breakfast food?Ans: muffins and pancakes! hohooo yumm~~ ^^
29. Fave Candy?Ans: lolipops. hee
30. Fave Vacation spot?Ans: paris~ japan! hongkong! yeahh.. and heaps more!!
31. Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex:Ans: eyes and lips.
32. Favorite cartoon?Ans: pokemon.. think i will choose naruto over pokemon if i watch naruto. close to 100 episode so far!! omg...
33. Go to the movies or rent?Ans: go there!
.34. Have you ever moved?Ans: yep. move house right?..
35. Have you ever stolen anything (from astore)?Ans: yeah i think so when i was a small little kid, remember i stole a packet of clips with my bro! oh man... so naughty~~ =x
36. How's the weather right now?Ans: cold.. but sunny. i like ^^
37. Hug or kiss?Ans: hugs and kisses!
38. Last person you talked to on the phone?Ans: called jason. morning call to 8oclock lecture. haha!
39. Last time you showered?Ans: half and hour ago.
40. Loud or soft music?Ans: depends on the quality of the music.. like if the lyrics are meaning and if loud music sound non-pollutive and soft music doesn't hypnotise me to sleep.. hee
41. McDonalds or Burger King?Ans: macker's pancakes n fries n chicken burger. burger king's mushroom swiss!
42. More romantic; baths or showers?Ans: bath is more romantic.. but i prefer to shower.
43. Night or day?Ans: night rulez!
44. Number of Pillows?Ans: 2
45. Piano or guitar?Ans: piano lo
46. Do you smoke, if yes what brands?Ans: nah.. if i do.. should be the light virginia slim. haha. but that day won't come.
47. Scary, romantic, drama or action movie?Ans: romantic ones
48.Fav food?Ans: for now... pasta with mushroom sauce rocks!
49. Last time cried?Ans: i can't remember.. but i know is due to something someone said.. and touched me.. =)
50. Last sms sent and received ? yesterday.. sent to peihua. received.. hmm... keep that a secret haha! woo lala~

Your Secondary School: Chua Chu Kang Secondary
1. nickname in high school? know.. ekin
2. sport you were into? hmm.. none manz..
3. had a gang of frens? how many were you? the 5 of us. me, renee, huiqin, zhenmin, yingjie. another click from band.. me, qijia, huiqin, shihuay. plus another click with the seniors.... (long list)
4. best subject? excluding my expertise known as music... it should be... Emaths!
5. worst subject? should be english =x
6. A teacher you owe life lessons to? miss chia.. she was good. but was bias towards the guys. good 'cos she always SHOUTed at us when we didn't do our work.. and made me do my work. well done. but really missed her after we graduated.
7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass? maybe THAT particular PE teacher who insulted mr chew's wife!
8. sec 1 : nerdy.
9. sec 2 : tomboyish.
10. sec 3 : most most most fruitful. =)
11. sec 4 : rulez man!
12. your best friend was? few from my gang of friends.
13. your worst friend was? probably i have forgiven that worst friend 'cos i can't name one.
14. cafeteria food sucked? not too good.
15. most hilarious school rule? no sports shoes allowed. wth.
16. wore uniform? of 'cos. greeeeeeen.. as if we were campaigning for forest conservation. gross.
17. how was the prom? not bad.. but was held in school hall. so so so cheapo! 0_0
18. who was prom king and queen? rose and the.. who... hmm.. (can't remember his name!)
19. any achievements? must be our band's SYF competition! and band concert!! and O levels! i am so proud of these haha... yep =) i miss band soooooo muchie!!!
20. were you popular? nah.. as said, i am not pretty, fat, stupid and idiotic.
21. best song that reminds you of high school? think is....... alvama overture.. it always rings in my ears... awww geez..
22. unforgettable sec school crush? shhshh.. he was from band.. but i don't like him anymore! but still.. can't say.. hee..
23. most embarrassing moment? i got my period and stained my skirt which luckily was dark green in colour phewwww! *blushed*
24. memory you'd like to forget about sec school? being scolded till i cried by 1 senior during full band.. and other people were like.. "hey don't scold her already lar"..
25. best memory? still best memories comes from band!
26. any regrets? nope ^^
27. would you like your future child to attendyour high school? not really.. i want my child to study in a less ah beng school... =x
28. were the bathrooms clean? the new block is..
29. where do you hang out after school?= lot1. band room.
30. song that would best describe your sec life?? perfect. by simple plan.. you know why? 'cos it goes something like.. 'sorry i can't be perfect'. yep

10 to 4

2004-07-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

10deg gonna fall to 4deg by night! oh my.... =x
won back some of my losses in mahjong yesterday. yeays that's coolx hehe. jay will be launching his new album soon! cool man! [qi li xiang]. dinner time~ soon.. after that.. i will have to start revision on stats... oh geez.... die..

2004-07-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

oh geez next week will be second week. time to buck up and be conscientious! haha... ya... time to focus and study..... hmmm.. GEEZ!

hoho.. went to tiAmO pronounced as ti a mo.. ^^ we walked there.. and guess who i saw? aaron, the church friend i know from singapore whao!... me ruby regan and liann went together and had supper... ps, not nice eh.......... although some people say it was.....

anyway, after that feast, it's time to save money for diet! aka gym. ohhhhh manz... 300 bucks for one year membership.. i am gonna be broke!! sigh today didn't go shopping 'cos i feel so so so broke....

today was the welcome dinner for the freshies. the theme: christmas in july! woHooOO.. the ham was GOOD, the fried potato too! the cakes as well! rocks!! if dinner can always be so good............ =p

but i feel quite weird.. quite quite not there.. whatever....... so far, feel that the freshies are kinda not TOO amiable... but some are ok... geez... maybe they are just shy! who knows right. hmmm.. feel debbie suddenly become quite hostile towards me after the 3weeks break which is after she isn't the freshies' rep for our batch. feels like she was friendly to me at first because of her post. sometimes when she sees me, she doesn't say hi anymore.. or what's more, even if she does, she doesn't look at me to say hi.. hiya.. what happens between him and her, is not my problem anymore. just wish them the best as a friend. i don't like him anymore. it's been so long.. just that i have a feeling that maybe she doesn't want me to talk to him anymore? but we haven't been talking to each other since....

it's winter... and i do feel the coldness in me.. sigh.. bless all~~~ study hard! study..... er..... rox. er.. ya.. hahahahaa...

flooding in my head

2004-07-21T15:46:00.000+08:00

something. one song. hehe yup

i am sO soO tired. crap. today's lab was total crap 'cos i understood nothing. shucks. as usual, we examined the legs, muscles and bones of ourselves. hehehe.. but everything else was crappy. this lab has alot more asians than my previous lab. but, hiya.. so many had their friends with them. bleah... so sianz.

today's wind is bloody sTrOnG! omg! i went broadway to buy one box of indomee. and 3boxes of tissues.. so i was having quite a difficult time walking back to hall.. plus the wind... wHooSH... haha.. yea i almost got blown away lol.. don't know what's wrong with the weather. it has rained and stopped upteen times today.. shucks.

hehe n oh yea, yesterday we went out to Osyter bar. the reason is obviously isn't it. haha.. yumm~ all of us, 17 people in all sat in a room booked by daniel. so cool~~~ it was nice ^^ peihua couldn't finish her white wine. and so we played 'zhong ji mi ma'.. whereby peihua think of 1 number. the 'lucky ass' who guesses that number will have to drink the wine! haha... so funny manz 'cos everyone panicked haha.. in the end it was carolyn and ailin's turn when the range was 47-50.ie, left only with 2 numbers, either 48 or 49. haha... it was carolyn's turn first and she guessed 49. the number was 48 so poor ailin had to drink that glass of lousy wine. geez haha.. rayner was damn funny. asking who dare to play using tabasco! omgosh! he kept playing with the wine glass. making those sounds. we waited quite long before the food was served. and he started to complain to us in hokkien but alot of us couldn't understand. haha.. he said that he didn't want the waitress to understand what he said 'cos the waitress was an aussie. then everyone was like.... speak in mandarin cannot meh??.. hahahaaa... whoA.. nick's face was sO red.. haha.. i think mine was also quite obvious. mark's and peihua's too..

we went to gelare after the oyster feast. wHaO.. *so FULL* so i went back with alfred wilfred and toh in cab first 'cos they wanted to go back hall too. and it was already close to 11pm then! i have lecture at 8am yet again. geez... came back bathed and propped into bed hehe... so shagged now. oh man...

n did i say............... it's SOOOOOO COLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.......................................... =x

i am still thinking of that song hahahaaaa....

LOOK WHAT YOU’VE DONE- JET

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won’t sing for you
Coz all that’s left has gone away
And there’s nothing there for you to prove

CHORUS
Ohh look what you’ve done you’ve made a fool of everyone
Ohh well it seems like such fun until you lose what you have won
Give me back my point of view coz I just can’t think for you
I can hardly hear you say what should I do, well you choose
Ohh look what you’ve done you’ve made a fool of everyone
Ohh well it seems like such fun until you lose what you have won
Ohh look what you’ve done you’ve made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won’t sing for you
Coz all that’s left has gone away
And there’s nothing there for you to do
Ohh look what you’ve done you’ve made a fool of everyone
Ohh well it seems like such fun until you lose what you have won
Ohh look what you’ve done you’ve made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

made a fool of everyone

2004-07-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

title comes from a song.. nothing of significance though heheh... ^^

today was the first day of school term. all is good except my school fees! crap.. i went to the second hand bookstore, co-op and united bookstore to buy all my textbooks. heck mostly bought are brand new. haha.. nvm i will just re sell it after this semester. ^^ i just HAte crowds.. currie hall is back to SOOO many peeps yikes... but ya, that's what the norm is all about! currie hall filled with FUN! hehe... yeah..

yesterday went out with ruby, gerald and melvin in their rented car which they returned today. went to cottesloe beach. went sight seeing although it was like 10pm haha... yeah went there to look for ruby's workplace and saw this SPLENDID castle-like resort WOOOOOHOOOOO... =p haha.. that was the coolest castle i have ever seen in real! =p and then had Chelsea pizza 'cos melvin didn't eat hall's food.. 'cos it simply SUCK BEEG TIME. reminds me tonight's dinner sucked. yucky pukes.. =x ya continue from where i was, went eat at chelsea... chatted crap haha.. was ok. ruby's mom called prolly to spot check or what or geezzz.. 12am we went back hall....... and today i had an 8 am lecture! crap! yet again... like semester 1.. oh manz....

biology was hard! i cant understand a shiet from it. what locomotion. fish form invertebrate form mammal thing oh nooooooo.... stats was nothing much so was ok.. yeah that's about all
dudes...

recently alot of peeps are falling sick. take care all..... tommorrow is a better day.. hehe

first mahjong session in 2nd sem

2004-07-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

i lost $20. bladdddddy hell. but i don't really felt bad or what 'cos look on the bright side, i have the motivation to win in future games.. yepyep. rayner and peihua were the big winners. damn unlucky today.. shucks beeeg time. daniel lost too. tomorrow all the people and CROWD will come. oh shit.. the hall will become bustling noisy and havoc again.. oh noo.... lol.

*yawn ruby david gerald melvin alvin are going clubbing later tonight. i decided not to go after the mahjong session.. so shaggeddddd......... no clubbing thanks ^^ zzzzz.... my neighbour is a new girl. they said she was quite 'dao'. oh geez..

tommorrow i need a good rest. monday, a new school term. i have nothing much to elaborate on that. i don't even know if i look forward to it or not.... sigh.. what am i thinkin?? i just hate crowd.... time to properly rejuvenate for the coming semester. yeahhh and i am gonna take econs. oh NO.... they say it's difficult..... shooo...

winter retniw

2004-07-17T16:51:00.001+08:00

these few days i had been unpacking my room and almost died lol. it's really ALOT to arrange and undo. my god.

yesterday was fun though. gerald and melvin rented a car. so with kenneth and ruby, we went out for supper. and also to the casino haha. gerald first drove to south perth then to northbridge then to burswood where the casino was. we went in and played a few rounds of jackpot. i won $5 but continued on and lost my own $5. hehe.. then ruby played jackpot and the 'fruit wheel' thingy. she asked me to bet on one for her while she betted on another fruit. sigh but none striked. so sad.. kenneth initially won $100 in the blackjack. but after me n ruby arrived to watch him play, he lost and lost his initial $10. geez.. =x

after that they wanted to go northbridge to watch fights haha.. but nah there were policemen patrolling so too bad lol. finally we had our supper and that was like 4am in the morning haha.. we had Eddy's. YUM~ hehe then came back crapped with ruby till 6 before turning in. so fun~ yeah coolx. ^^

then today i woke up at 4pm. oh my gosh...... haha.. dinner time soon. *famished* hehe.. oh and carolyn and janice and daniel and lots more are back! yeahhh.... shiok man

the day before tomorrow!

2004-07-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

went granny's house today to visit her before i leave for perth. i tried. ya i tried using hokkien to speak with her.. abit cannot make it 'cos i mixed bit of chinese and english with hokkien. lol. i kept using 'but' 'cos i have no idea what's 'but' in hokkien! oh no.. i am not a hokkien, i am a chinese =p
after that uncle wanted to give me some $$, but he himself isn't rich, so i declined his offer. and THAT HUGE DOG at granny's place was as hyper as before. OH MAN it LOVES to pound on people. and all i could do was hide behind dad for 'protection' haha... me SO BIG, but am afraid of a quite big dog. geez..
i nua-ed for 1hr, and headed to meet sh at far east to do some last minute shopping and also to buy my textbooks in the hope that Borders/ TImes/ Kinokuniya would have them. but no.. so much for hoping too much. oh wells.
but it was FUN 'cos was laming with sh about allllll the things that happened these few months haha! and we bought some stuff as well. walked from far east to taka, to heeren then to centrepoint so fun can burn fats! lol. hq called and asked us to go for the gathering with the ex-seniors, but in the end not just us who didn't go, she herself didn't go too. haha.. see la scold me somemore!! =p
we took a cab home 'cos the buses were SO crowded (means won't be able to find seats). hehe.. so ya.. i paid for most of the cost 'cos cab was headed to my place. i waited with sh for her bus then after that walked home. sigh... i am so depressed. Shucks!... later meeting qj at my house, 'cos she wants to see me!! lol. and also pass me some goodies. she wants to try the rockles chocolates too oBviOuslY hahahaa....
hope i won't miss here too much. hope for GOOD results next semester too. no clubbing thanks. haha... cheers! peaceout!

i got it, i got it, thank god

2004-07-13T02:39:00.000+08:00

i did well for my 1st semester. thank god. it's all about hard work, although it was a little bit of last minute rush. ^^
today i went to all the prestigious tertiary institutions in search of my handy words of knowlege, my textbooks. lol. first i went to NUS, but couldn't find what i wanted. NIE, then to NTU. it's a total disappointment to search high and low for the bookstores, and when i finally found them, the staff told me the books weren't available. aww man, i was so shagged out 'cos of the energy taken up to WALK around NTU especially, and it was raining. =x everything was kinda wasted trip, i bought nothing but a speedball for qj. it was near night when i reached home, so changed and went to meet qj and hq for dinner at plaza. qj wanted to eat sakura but not kopitiam and hq wanted the opposite. ohhhhh man.. so i chose genki sushi instead. not very fantastic. but was ok.. ^^ after that we went to order cake for my mom. a cake from bangawan solo. it's chocolate flavour! yumm~~ her birthday is today hehe ^^ shuzhen's birthday too! happy birthday! =) today someone i don't really know called. i don't even know his name. forgotten =x just some irritating person i know through some unexpected coincidence. *shivers* ya.. *shrugh*
but nvm my day isn't spoiled 'cos of him. 'cos i did well for my exams. yeay. now, i have no idea what elective to take for the next semester. *vexed* decisions decisions.. i hate decision-making! macroecons anybody? or organisation and management...

shagged

2004-07-12T04:00:00.000+08:00

i spent half a day designing this new blog. and now, i am so tired. and xinloo!! haha.. i will keep your name alive in my blog! haha... *fainted =p

today woke up pretty late as the day before i didn't sleep early or say couldn't sleep early. so.. too bad. went out with mom and bro for dinner and then bought all my stuff i need to bring back australia. i am going back in just a few days time. shrug... sigh. and i though i saw ZHANG hui shan at Plaza. i was talking with shihuay the other day about not seeing huishan since 3years back and today i think i saw her with her parents and probably her bro. i am not sure too. but, she looks kinda the same. just abit longer hair. but who cares, we weren't THAT close after we parted to different classes in secondary 3.

i went for my second facial on saturday and as usual, my face ISH red SO red. ice anybody? =p i am going again on tuesday 'cos my beautician asked me to attend a last facial treatment before i leave sg. and she's charging for free. hehe 'cos i am a regular! ^^

i am feeling abit depressed now. sigh more and more into it as my day comes to go to the airport. yet yet, i look forward to the new school term, and somethings... in australia... how parodox. i think i will have to hide my tears again when leaving at the Departure hall.. oh no! *shrug i am so screwed.

these few days, i will be SO busy! hell with cramps.